SOMEBODY,TELL ME WHATS THE POINT OF BOTTLING UP ALL THESE FEELINGS. THEY ONLY MAKE ME FEEL SO MUCH MORE WORSE. IM FEELING UPSET, DISAPPOINTED AND HURT. AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO.NOT EXCATLY NOTHING, BUT HISTORY IS REPEATING ITSELF ONCE AGAIN. AND I DONT WISH TO DO ANYTHING ANYMORE. YOU CAN TELL ME, IS IT REALLY WORTH IT, TWELVE YEARS OR MORE OF FRIENDSHIP, JUST DOWN THE DRAIN LIKE THAT. BUT WHATS THE POINT WHEN ALL ALONG I HAVE BEEN THE ONE TRYING SO HARD TO KEEP US FROM DISTANCING? WHATS THE POINT, DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL AT TIMES. NO YOU DONT. YOU, MY TWELVE-YEARS FRIEND, I FOUND THAT YOU ACTUALLY DONT UNDERSTAND ME AT ALL.WHY IS IT THAT YOU ARE DOING THINGS FOR YOUR FRIENDSHIPS IN YOUR SCHOOL AND DOING NOTHING FOR OURS, LEAVING EVERYTHING TO ME. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO ACTUALLY ALREADY KEEP IN CONTACT FROM SOMEONE IN TOTAL DIFFERENT SCHOOL AND SURROUNDINGS? YOU PROBABLY DO OR DO NOT, I DO NOT KNOW. BUT WHAT I KNOW IS THAT YOU DO NOT DO ANYTHING FOR OUR FRIENDSHIP. WHAT I DO KNOW IS THAT YOU ALWAYS SAY THAT YOU WOULD DO THIS AND THAT BUT YOU NEVER ONCE DOES IT. WHY, WHY ARE YOUR WORDS NOTHING BUT LIES TO ME. DO YOU ACTUALLY CONSIDER MY FEELINGS WHEN YOU SAY THINGS THAT YOU DONT MEAN. DO YOU KNOW HOW DO I FEEL. NO YOU DONT. ALL YOU KNOW HOW TO DO WHEN WE TALK THINGS OUT IS JUST TO TELL ME SORRY. IM SORRY. WHATS POINT. YOU TELL ME YOU WANT TO MEND THIS FRIENDSHIP. YOU TELL ME SORRY FOR LEAVING ME OUT HERE AND THERE AND YOU WANT TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH ME. THESE ARE NOTHING BUT LIES. WHAT HAPPEN TO THE FRIDAY YOU SAID YOU WANT TO LEAVE JUST TO SPEND TIME WITH ME. WHAT HAPPEN TO THE MUTUAL TRUST YOU OH-SO-CLAIM BETWEEN US. WHATS THE POINT OF CLARIFYING THINGS OR TALKING THEM OUT WHEN HISTORY KEEPS REPEATING ITSELF, AND EACH TIME WE GO INTO COLD WAR THE HURT ACTUALLY GETS WORSE.DONT TELL ME YOU DO NOT KNOW THAT WE ARE DRIFTING. YOU KNOW AND YOU DO NOTHING ABOUT, WHAT DO YOU CALL YOURSELF, A TWELVE FRIEND WHOM SUPPOSINGLY IS MY TRUE FRIEND? WHAT HAPPEN TO THE TIME WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST AND I WAS FEELING OH-SO-DOWN. YOU WERE ACTUALLY NOT THERE FOR ME.SOMETIMES I DO WONDER IF YOU MEANT THE WORDS YOU SAY. SOMETIMES I DO WONDER IF YOU REALLY CARED. SOMEHOW OR RATHER, I FEEL THAT THE ANSWER IS A NO. WHY DO I ALWAYS FIND MYSELF BEING THE ONE TRYING TO GO ALONG WITH YOU IN WHATEVER THING THAT YOU WANT TO DO, BUT IT SEEM AS THOUGH, NEVER ONCE HAVE YOU DID SOMETHING THAT I WANT TO DO.WHY, CAN YOU ANSWER ME, WHY. CALL ME IRRITATING OR WHAT SO EVER. I DONT CARE. ALL I KNOW IS THAT I'M TIRED AND I DONT WISH TO CARE ABOUT THIS FRIENDSHIP ANYMORE. BUT YET I CANT. WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS DO THIS TO ME.WHAT MUST HAPPEN TO LET YOU ACTUALLY TREASURE OUR FRIENDSHIP, AND STOP LETTING HISTORY TO REPEAT ITSELF.
