paul twohill is such a retard, i conclude. but yet i love him. sorry, i meant his voice okay. but hes voice is really great, plus his retarded-ness, i feel like slapping him! HAHAHAHAHAHA.
school was crazy as usual. just that i feel bad for screaming at john and making such a big fuss. ahh, i shall learn from my lesson and learn to control my temper more (: stupid gregory, make me type such a long message and HE WENT OFFLINE!!!!! and im hungry. if im free later on i would blog about today. LOVE!
xoxo
Friday, May 26, 2006
11:00 PM
screw blogger, eat up my photos.
xoxo
as i've said, photos.(: i wish there's someone to entertain me always.
thanks to that stupid boss i had to do that in class.
LUM!
i enjoy irritating her on the bus
ready for war!
pearl=bad photographer
xoxo
Thursday, May 18, 2006
7:02 PM
my day was great. i think. hahahaha. i see no point coming for school since they arent returning my papers, lessons resumed=free periods. they might as well change them all to chinese.ok, i was just kidding, dont kill me ok. im going to start changing my habits, and i dont wish to see you meanwhile. so SCRAM! anyway, you're such a liar, and i think you have not change a single bit. im so glad i aint your friend anymore.
well, i may seem to be alright over here. but i know my thoughts are sometimes here and there. and i still dont get why am i trying to hard to salvage our friendship. why am i still thinking about it? well, its not as if i have done something wrong right, and not to you right. so, why am i so afraid of you? why should i be when i believe that i have done nothing wrong at all, but in fact i feel that you have been the one not doing anything all these while. crap, you this 'friend'. shrugs. dont tell me it is because i have changed to become materialistic. because if you think that way, and you are my friend. you would accept me for who i am. BUT. you are supposed to be the one who come to me and tell me how much i've changed and you are supposed to one who change me. yet, you did not do that. so, why should i care? you did not care a single bit, so why should i? you probably wont be reading this, and even if you do, i dont care because this is frankly how i feel. nah, you probably even forgetten that i existed. i wonder why did i try so hard for a friendship not worth. yep, not worth it at all. you dont give a damn for the past few times when this happen, why did i cry so much for it? i should have known better than to trust you again and again. somehow i knew this was the real you yet i kept lying to myself again and again. so that you are my 'friend'. darn, im such a fool.
and i've learnt. not to put in so much for a friendship not worth it at all.
xoxo
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
8:14 PM
crap. blogger doesnt seem to let me upload more than 5 photos at a go and the nexyt time i upload it never seem to appear, so here are the rest. (:
look at cherrylumchingmun.shes a retard. haha.
CLIQUE! (: without xinyi though.
xoxo
hello people. i've got more awesome stuff to upload. haha, nah its just my clique's day out (: heh, had a fun day out. and crapping at cherrylum's house.
typical joyce
what more can i say?
ok, attention is not on me and mj cause we both look retarded. haha. well, mj and cher's cute guy is behind you see. tsk tsk.
xoxo
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
3:21 PM
hahaha. hello people. so, hows life. oral is kinda great today, i guess. chinese, again, i doubt i will do well. shrugs. sammie is really funny, that small girl hahaha
well. i was thinking about some stuffs again. well, i suppose everyone of us has experienced this before, losing contact with a friend. and when you suddenly remember that friend of yours, you wish you two couldbe like how you were in the past. but you actually realised that your friend has changed. shrugs, somehow i feel that that often happens to me an exception of a few though. sometimes i just wish that my friend would belike my friend that i used to have. but yet things would never be the same again. and when you began to feel sad that you seem to have lost a friend, you can no longer click well with your friend anymore, fun memories of you and your friend had flood back to you.
whatever, i've decided to show you awesome stuff!
love mother nature! (:
i think they look kinda retarded wearing uniform taking a train. like my penguin, RETARD!
LOOK AT THE WAY THAT GIRL WITH THE GREEN SKIRT IS SITTING. I WISH I COULD ZOOM MORE JUST TO TAKE HER FACE AND SHOW YOU ALL. ITS REALLY DISGRACEFUL. REALLY.
people say, keep the best for last. oranGEENA! (: hahahhaa
xoxo
Thursday, May 11, 2006
11:07 PM
SOMEBODY,TELL ME WHATS THE POINT OF BOTTLING UP ALL THESE FEELINGS. THEY ONLY MAKE ME FEEL SO MUCH MORE WORSE. IM FEELING UPSET, DISAPPOINTED AND HURT. AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO.NOT EXCATLY NOTHING, BUT HISTORY IS REPEATING ITSELF ONCE AGAIN. AND I DONT WISH TO DO ANYTHING ANYMORE. YOU CAN TELL ME, IS IT REALLY WORTH IT, TWELVE YEARS OR MORE OF FRIENDSHIP, JUST DOWN THE DRAIN LIKE THAT. BUT WHATS THE POINT WHEN ALL ALONG I HAVE BEEN THE ONE TRYING SO HARD TO KEEP US FROM DISTANCING? WHATS THE POINT, DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL AT TIMES. NO YOU DONT. YOU, MY TWELVE-YEARS FRIEND, I FOUND THAT YOU ACTUALLY DONT UNDERSTAND ME AT ALL.WHY IS IT THAT YOU ARE DOING THINGS FOR YOUR FRIENDSHIPS IN YOUR SCHOOL AND DOING NOTHING FOR OURS, LEAVING EVERYTHING TO ME. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO ACTUALLY ALREADY KEEP IN CONTACT FROM SOMEONE IN TOTAL DIFFERENT SCHOOL AND SURROUNDINGS? YOU PROBABLY DO OR DO NOT, I DO NOT KNOW. BUT WHAT I KNOW IS THAT YOU DO NOT DO ANYTHING FOR OUR FRIENDSHIP. WHAT I DO KNOW IS THAT YOU ALWAYS SAY THAT YOU WOULD DO THIS AND THAT BUT YOU NEVER ONCE DOES IT. WHY, WHY ARE YOUR WORDS NOTHING BUT LIES TO ME. DO YOU ACTUALLY CONSIDER MY FEELINGS WHEN YOU SAY THINGS THAT YOU DONT MEAN. DO YOU KNOW HOW DO I FEEL. NO YOU DONT. ALL YOU KNOW HOW TO DO WHEN WE TALK THINGS OUT IS JUST TO TELL ME SORRY. IM SORRY. WHATS POINT. YOU TELL ME YOU WANT TO MEND THIS FRIENDSHIP. YOU TELL ME SORRY FOR LEAVING ME OUT HERE AND THERE AND YOU WANT TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH ME. THESE ARE NOTHING BUT LIES. WHAT HAPPEN TO THE FRIDAY YOU SAID YOU WANT TO LEAVE JUST TO SPEND TIME WITH ME. WHAT HAPPEN TO THE MUTUAL TRUST YOU OH-SO-CLAIM BETWEEN US. WHATS THE POINT OF CLARIFYING THINGS OR TALKING THEM OUT WHEN HISTORY KEEPS REPEATING ITSELF, AND EACH TIME WE GO INTO COLD WAR THE HURT ACTUALLY GETS WORSE.DONT TELL ME YOU DO NOT KNOW THAT WE ARE DRIFTING. YOU KNOW AND YOU DO NOTHING ABOUT, WHAT DO YOU CALL YOURSELF, A TWELVE FRIEND WHOM SUPPOSINGLY IS MY TRUE FRIEND? WHAT HAPPEN TO THE TIME WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST AND I WAS FEELING OH-SO-DOWN. YOU WERE ACTUALLY NOT THERE FOR ME.SOMETIMES I DO WONDER IF YOU MEANT THE WORDS YOU SAY. SOMETIMES I DO WONDER IF YOU REALLY CARED. SOMEHOW OR RATHER, I FEEL THAT THE ANSWER IS A NO. WHY DO I ALWAYS FIND MYSELF BEING THE ONE TRYING TO GO ALONG WITH YOU IN WHATEVER THING THAT YOU WANT TO DO, BUT IT SEEM AS THOUGH, NEVER ONCE HAVE YOU DID SOMETHING THAT I WANT TO DO.WHY, CAN YOU ANSWER ME, WHY. CALL ME IRRITATING OR WHAT SO EVER. I DONT CARE. ALL I KNOW IS THAT I'M TIRED AND I DONT WISH TO CARE ABOUT THIS FRIENDSHIP ANYMORE. BUT YET I CANT. WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS DO THIS TO ME.WHAT MUST HAPPEN TO LET YOU ACTUALLY TREASURE OUR FRIENDSHIP, AND STOP LETTING HISTORY TO REPEAT ITSELF.
xoxo
im bored. someone entertain me please. somehow. suddenly my life is sooo dull. i dont laugh to myself while walking home anymore. all thats on my face is a ): i wonder whats wrong with me. just a few moments ago was out. having fun. but i didnt laugh. whatever.
tomorrow, going out with clique. oh well. and nothing is being discussed til now. i wonder how would things turn out to be tomorrow. ahhhh. i think i should bully ah duck. bullying ah duck seems to be able to cheer me up.
see you people, love.
xoxo
Monday, May 08, 2006
6:24 PM
call me too free or what so ever, i hardly have time to play with sammie ever since she came so i was noticing her just now. to show you how retarded and naughty she is. (:
always hungry mutt.
that cloth was used to clean her urine. and look at her stubborness. shes off the ground and refuses to let me have it.tsk.
hahahahha retard.
(:
shes practising to join the next modelling competition(:
xoxo
i feel that i screwed all my papers. haha. whatever, i know i did worse than badly. ahhh.after exams im going to sleep 10 hours a day, make sure that headache doesnt bother me anymore. i hate it when it start bugging me. whatever. anyway. here to show you sammieeeeeeeeee.
that horrible dog dragged that dirty piece of cloth from the hall til outside.
and refused to let go of it.
aye, such a busybody.
heh, i like this. kinda cool.
xoxo
Friday, May 05, 2006
1:49 PM
im depressed.im depressed.im depressed. no im not. no im not. no im not. lalala. friday, a day to sleep. hah. finally, half of the maths paper gone, all the humanities subject over. language too. theres so much to say. yet im so lazy to type. aye. what if my fingers grow fat! HOWWWWWWWWWW. haha. no wonder uncle calls me crap.
ahhh. hungry. would someone nice cook for me pleaseeee. (: uncle still owe me a steak. cant wait for that steak. MUAHAHA.
ahh i think im full of nonsense now. NEXT WEEK IS PHYSICS CHEMISTRY AND BIOLOGY. AYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. DIE DIE DIE/ hahaha. what crap am i talking!
shall update later when i talk normally. see you, LOVE!