n i noe tt i cant control ur eyes. cant stop wad u wana see. becos i noe tt even when ur infront of me. u wana look at them. i noe tt behind me n not wif me u would definately look at them. i noe tt.
xoxo
)): i noe i shldnt said those stuffs. i duno y did i did tt. maybe it were those reasons i told u i duno.
trust. i will try. hope. im pulling it back into my life. stubborn. anger. i will try. but obviously. i expect u to make me happy. but if u get pissed off wif me. n walk off. den i guess u probably destoryed ur chance. made a decision to really walk away.
juz stop doin things tt make me disappointed. will you. cant stand it anymore.
xoxo
Monday, June 27, 2005
9:09 PM
nobody is taking report book for me )): todays the first day n i already got sent for detention ))):
xoxo
Sunday, June 26, 2005
9:37 PM
everything is a lie to me. i feel like crying.
xoxo
Saturday, June 25, 2005
9:33 PM
gahh. teenagers nowadays always wana get into a fight. hear 'police' den zhao. tsk.
today was quite fun but tiring la. cycle bicycle.sat at the beach. yawn. but toked bout many things la.((:
thanks for choosing the cat over the pig.
xoxo
Friday, June 24, 2005
10:05 PM
i feel like crying once again.
acting strong infront of ppl doesnt helps. it really doesnt. acting stubborn too.
sighh. did i tell u tt the windows on the sbs bus are nice to knock? they r so soft even if u bang ur head on it ur head wont hurt ((:
xoxo
nobody is answering my call. isnt der anyone for me?
put the pieces of me together once again. its tearing me apart. wipe those tears away they wont stop falling. heal the pain. they were never gone.
xoxo
Thursday, June 23, 2005
1:14 PM
IM PISSED. IM SERIOUSLY PISSED.
you knew i very well wouldnt b happy. you knew wad would happen. yet you still chose to do it.
i didnt ask for u to risk ur life n cycle while tryin to tok to me. i didnt ask u to stay out til so late. til i couldnt tok to u online when der was a chance; thank u very much. so tell me. y shld i let my phone bil explode cause you wana msg me n tts cause u reach home late n thus cant tok to me online while der was a chance. y shld i trust wad u said.when i happily trusted you but u threw it away n wan it back again now. y shld i make u happy y shld i not show u my temper when i very well wasnt happy. y shld i understand tt u wana spend time wif all ur frens.
y issit tt wad u do wif ur frens r so much more better den wad u do wif me. since its this way. Y DUN U GO SPEND ALL YOUR TIME WIF THEM.
i dun like to be treat like the second hand.
xoxo
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
10:06 PM
empty.
nth is going right for me. nth.
you. i duno wad to say. i tink i can say tt i've tried. but ders juz this somethin tt is in between us. it juz wont be the same anymore, will it?
empty promises- both of us haf failed.
xoxo
sick. sick is all im feeling. sick in the brain. m i?
im freaking irritated. no im not. i feel stressed. y? i duno. wads wrong wif me? i duno.
i duno wad im doin. neither do i noe y did i cry.was it out of fear. or hatred. or empty-ness. y did the tears fall? i wonder.
empty-ness fill my heart. lonely.
everyday coming back to find an empty home. where's the love you're suppose to give me?
xoxo
Friday, June 17, 2005
8:28 PM
hoho! today went bugis wif cousin n aunt. went out wif my sexy black converse shoes.X) ok la was quite fun la huh. saw many peeps today though.
saw veronica.(yucks.) den i saw joanna kelly n queenie didnt went over to say hi though. hahas duno y denn. bro saw us n apporached us he like came n wave infront of my aunt n say. hello auntie. den i was like. hu the hell is this guy man den i realise it was my bro HOHO. im smart huh. hahas.
den i went grandmama house. i tink the roti boy doesnt taste nice to me anymore blehh. FRIED OYSTER is still nice though. hoho ROJAK isnt tt bad either. saw jian ann amanda zarra n yuan ying hoho. too bad i was downstairs wif cuz n they didnt see me.
im determined to go dieting when school reopens. n save money. hohoho den i will so shop shop shop at the great singapore sale. -screams. if only i haf enough money man! its okie. my atm is here for me though. ((: okok i feel bad spendin tt money. hee.
if YOU haf any comments bout my nails juz tell me n ur sarcasm isnt appreciated. thank you.
xoxo
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
10:37 PM
I GOT MY TAGBOARD DONE! ahhh but noone will tag. boos. hahas.
hmm went towning today went wif mummys 50 bucks back wif 10cents HOHO
i finally got my converse sexy black shoes. yayys when i wanted to buy shoes. everyone seem to b wearin shoes. now after i bought tt pair of shoes everyone seems to b buying slippers n sandals. ARGH. hahas. so irritating!
argh. i arent happy anymore.
xoxo
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
5:18 PM
OMG. MY PENCILBOX IS HALF FULL. hoohoohoo. so stupid. went pen-shopping wif honey today. paid for everythin. thanks honeyX)
uhh. new blogskin. issit ugly? if i is pls tell me huh. hahas. yep. looks like cbox is down. boos.
i wana shop for more more more pens n shoes n bag!
xoxo
Thursday, June 09, 2005
9:58 PM
i wonder if u noe. u noe tt one word. juz one word from u it can change wad i wana do.
i dunoo wad im sayin
sighh
the hurt. haf nv gone away the pain. the tots. kept inside mee.
y cant everythin b the same again. i wan it to b the same as before. the feelings. the laughter. the smile. the happiness. the love.
i wana worship God. n nv forget my Saviour.
xoxo
Monday, June 06, 2005
9:05 PM
okok from tml onwards. it DIETING DIETING N DIETING. uhhh. no food no food only little little breakfast. okok lunch dinner. alright la ((:
DIETING.
ai ya went cycling today ((: i mis the old times lots. wenn sp. joeline deborah. n obviously cherryl joyce xinyi ameila n the chin tuition peeps. n everyone. blehh hmm i miss amoebaa. but dun worry. i miss everyone else as well. ((: n of course youu*
xoxo
ARGH IM PISSED IM PISSED IMPISSED IM PISSED IM PISSED IM PISSED IM PISSED IM PISSED IM PISSED IM PISSED IM PISSED. ARGHHHHHHHHH.
xoxo
Friday, June 03, 2005
10:54 PM
suddenly all the tots of her came back i duno y dun ask me y juz. a suddenly. sighhh.
ijuz really cant forget it okies. its juz so hard too. its juz like. i duno wad to say la sighh juz give me a few days la guess it will b over soon. sighhh. too hard for me to take it huh? maybe. sighh
u really tried. but i cant okies? sighh. probably. i'll juz assure myself tt wads my will b my. wads not my. wont b my.
xoxo
Thursday, June 02, 2005
2:02 PM
ystd. dropping from a thousand level high up building down. becoming into thousands millions n billions of pieces. -tts my heart.
i juz realised tt i haven got over it. nor can i take the fact. tt u juz said. i cant believe it. no i cant. i cant believe tt u didnt treat me like ur gf. doing tt. worse of all. u said those stuffs. did u regard me as though im dead? if not. y did u do tt. not guilty? i cant bring myself to say those words to someone i dun like. unless i like tt person. how could u?
i cant believe it. n i juz realised tt i haven got over it. at all. tears. drip.drip.drip.
xoxo
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
10:18 AM
well. all i can say bout ystd is. thanks. -in both grateful n sarcastic way. dun ask me y. i wont say anythin.
today. going to buy straw. den study at mac. ((: damn boring. n this freakin mouse is seriously irritating. wont say any more. i might get angry. sshh.