boo. my com spoilt again. argh. hear ppl singin tt tt chi song. argh. i cant seem to rmb it @ all.. so many things haf happened.. hEh. noW admiRing a gUy called. HUAY. muahahaha u will nv noe hu it is hes from ---- n from *******.. n.. hahas even if i tell u everythin i noe bout him u will nv noe cause is all in ---- n ****. muahaha. even this girl called justina lee hu noe hu is the guy also cant guess wad is the ---n ***. heh okok.. dun play le. anyway. sighs. schs boring. but now readin christopher golden books. hook on2 his books heh. okokok gtg le bb ppl tc~
xoxo
Monday, August 09, 2004
11:54 PM
hEy! thanKS pEeps! thOse whO hAd hElpEd mE wheNEvEr i fElT uPsEt oF anGRY oR-- thOsE hU juZ hElPeD mE iN a wAy oR anoTheR.. rEaLiSeD tT u gUys rE a wOndErfuL bLeSsiNGSssS tT God haD giVeN to mE. thAnkS God! =D hmmm.. spEciAl cOrnEr? yUpS-- WenQi u hAf bEEn mY mOst WonDerFul fREn tt i evEr haD. wE rE fRens for. 10+ yRs? yUps. evEr sinCe kiNdeRgaRden. u nOe almOSt evErytHin boUt mE. i tRusT u thE mOst, toK 2 u thE moSt, u uNdErstaNd mE the moSt. whEneVeR iM doWn, uNhapPy, anGRy n sTuFf lIke tT u wIllL noe wAD tO dO. rOcK oN the buDdy! JunWei hahas. featherless. all feathers pluck by me. hahas. i wana thank u. cause whenever im feelin sad or wad, u r alwaysthe one tt make me laugh. i mean. yupss. unintention. juz happen to say somethin funny n make me laugh. when im angry u will also make me laugh. u always makin me laugh, smile n brighten my day. n u also seem 2 be like a elder brother 2 me. be there whenever im down. little featherless clown. =D *plucks another feather* take caRe!
xoxo
another day is almost gone. sighss. wad m i suppose to do? i really duno! i really really duno wad to do. im confused. im sad. im.. exploding wif so many differentfeelings. can some1 help me? tell me wad to do? i duno! i juz feel like breakin down n cryin.i duno y.maybe is cause i juz read some1's blog. i cant say hu. is secret. maybe is because huay huay died. or maybe is cause of this. u noe somethin? whenever wen tells me bout her hamsters i will think bout my. haiss. this is the ever first huay huay. the 1st one tt i haf ever taken care. i think it was my fault tt it died. i think is cause it didnt had enough food? i duno. i duno how m i gonna face her. she trusted the hamster in my hands. do u think is my fault tt it die? do u think tt i caused its death? i think so. sighss. i dun think i dare to look @ her or see her anymore. not anymore. cause im guilty. im guilty. how m i gonna tell u tt it died? how m i gonna break the news to u? how m i even gonna look @ u? n. himm. wad bout him. today is the 2nd day. how long do i haf 2 tell u the answer? how long m i gonna take to say a yes or a no? y did u asksuch a question? y did u give me this problem @ first? how i wish.. tt the erson hu asked this question wasnt u. is some1 else. but. will i agree 2? i duno! will i be happy? i dun think so. cause i dun think i love u at all. i think i only treat u as a good fren. tts all. but. no1 wana be rejected. nobody. wad m i suppose to do? HeLp mEeeeeeeeeeeee......
xoxo
Sunday, August 08, 2004
8:27 PM
weeeeeeeEee.. fri we had national day celebration.. sO fun!! it rox!! juz tt feel disappointed when some girls nv wear their GB uniform when they r supposed 2..ai my keyboard still spolit.. yupss. so dun type so much.. den after tt i went home 2 wash my uniform.. before i went out it was dry already! yea! den i went out 2 watch The Village. 2 me, the movie was ok lo.. got some feed back from some ppl.. some say was 2 borin til fell asleep.. k k lohss.. the story is full of interesting twists. juz tt if some not clever ppl hu put their hp 2 silent mode n some girls dun anyhow scream when they dun haf 2.. the movie would b better.. den yesterday had thanksgiving erm the dance band n choir were quite good lahss. well.. juz tt when band playin tt time juz cant stop my eye from lookin @ some1. dun ask me y!but nto all the time. den we had 2 go down for refreshment duties le.. den some of the prefects came down. so juz tok 2 some of them. uh huh den he was also there. soon the whole thin was over n went 2 leisure park n bowl-ed wif woei chian, alvin, karen, reena n hui yan. xuan qi deborah also went there btu they didnt play.. there goes all my fun.. today.. hais. some1 asked me 2 b his stead.. haiss.. im dun lki him. the most we can b si very good n close frens.. btu i cant bing myself 2 reject him..! wad can i do?hais. i dun wana make a wrond decision lkie last time again. si better 2 break 1 heart now den 2 break 2.. rite? or this is my selfish thinkin? wad can i do? i duno! - m i bein 2 selfish?-
-dont make the wrong decision cause u'll regret it 4ever.-
xoxo
Thursday, August 05, 2004
6:31 PM
ARGH. i TYPED SO MUCH DEN THE STUPID WEB WENT 2 SOME OTHER STUPID WEB! aargh! anyway. i was in such a good mood cause tml no need go back pri sch den no r.o.d practice. so on the buz was so happy planning bout tml things n waitni 2 tell wen the good news.i TOT we could go n watch the village n stuff like tt. i TOT. but when i was walkin home wif them.. i realised tt there was a BIG bunch of them going. wow. a big bunch. so i decided nt 2 go. they will b tokin bout nth nut cedar band cedar. so wads the use of me doin there? is like so extra.. somemore iduno some of them lorhss.. maybe we r nt fated 2 go. hmmm.. nto realyy nt fated cause is.. i dun wana go. but. how 2 go? she ask me @ 1st 2 watch i said ok cause i tot is the 2 of them. wen n sp. hais. all of the sudden SOO many ppl pop up. haix. but she wanted 2 split away/separt from them watch wif me. but- is like u r going wif ur group of frens lorhss. den cause of me u dun go wif them. u noe is like snatchin frens? i mean im nt tryin 2 do tt lahss btu it feels tt way.. n is like makin them separte fom each other.. haiss.. i duno wad 2 do.. i really duno. juz confused. but can i bear 2 nt go wif them? of course nt. btu wad 2 do? i dun wana go n like break ppl up..! hais.. im thinkin of going out wif zheng yi.. i duno if she free nt.. hais.. Joeline will go wif her sis n Ju Yin.. Deborah will nt go out.. den Justina will go wif either hiu ching or cheryl.. haiss.. wad bout me?!?! hais. stay @ home? duno.. hais.. anyway.. i committed this thin bout hu 2 go out wif n wad 2 do into Father's hand. so i wont b worryin bout this cause i noe Jesus will help me!
-wana go?-
-confused?-
xoxo
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
9:59 PM
today oh wells' today's... ok lohx. had a ndp rehearsal. but the tahat sedia-sedia juz sux. stupid npcc guy. u re the timer noe. u r suppose 2 say the timing lorhss. so wads ur prob huh? u re suppoae 2 say the timing but u didnt. den u cause every1 on the parade ground 2 b confused. idiot. i dun care if ur fren read this n tell u or wad. i dun care. mi already pissed enough. PISSED. cant u 2 juz shut up 4 1 day? juz 1 day so tt the whole class can haf peace? u noe u 2 so irritating? juz shut up can nt? argh.
fallin...? m i fallin in love wif u again? cant stand myself. always like tt. i noe it is impossible in between us. but i cant stop lookin @ u throughout the entire thin.. oh man i hate this. i dun wana like u. i dun wana lov u. juz wana b frens. tts all.
-stop loving me cause i noe it will only hurt me even moree- -dun break my heart. its fragile-
-i already haf been hurt before. by u. so stop hurtin me.-
xoxo
Monday, August 02, 2004
9:03 PM
HATRED.PISSED.UNFAIR.BIAOUS argh. i cant stand this anymore. i really cant. wads her prob?cant u stop showin favourism 2 him? can u dun b biaous? so wad if he is a a university student. so wad if he stay there almost everyday? so wad if he comes home whenever he likes it? so wad if tt was his bday ysterday? does it means tt he gets all he wans? everythin he wans? does it means tt u re the 1 tt we all shld serve? does it mean tt u get all the care love n concern from the others? y is it tt u seem 2 get everythin tt u wan n i dun seem 2 get most of the things i wan? y is it tt when u r home u get all the gd food? i seldom get 2 eat all this. u r the boss n we r ur servant when u r @ home. y shld it b this way? do u even noe wads happening @ home? do u even care? wad do u do? u only noe how 2 slp eat n take money?? u noe u r the biggest spender of our family? but wad do u do? u only noe how 2 take$$ every week. even if u earn $$ u spend all urself. wad haf u done? haf u done anythin? FED UP.CANT STAND IT ANYMORE.I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!