chinese new year was great. yep, and i love all my clothes. and of course, i love all those whom i went visiting. like my stupid cousin. but, sad to say. i got a feeling we only got the time to go out after 'o's rahhh.
i dont know.
you, stop thinking everyone likes you. thats really gross, if you realised ok?
my dearest pet tortoise on vacation. get well soon ok. i will really miss you for the next two weeks.
i dont know.
lets see how long this 'trust' can last uh. i wonder.
fri is prefects installation. im usher again!
i miss my dear camera. darn.
im at random. i dont know.
xoxo
Sunday, January 29, 2006
12:01 AM
great. it is new year. and i just dont care a single bit. i dont even bother sending messages. i guess it is because of you who screw up every thought i have in my mind. im currently in a i-pissed,dont-irritate-me mood. whats wrong with me, i dont know ROARS
it has been fun for the past few days. dawn. shes an idiot. ok, lets be more kind. cant find a word for her. but yea, loves. i still cant believe what we used to do in secondary one in school and the times where we go out. trust me, we really do wreak havoc when we are hyper high. cherryl minjia joyce. amazed at mingjia. really do hah. they dont wana acknowledge me as a friend. so be it. but obviously i pull them.
shall blog when in a better mood.
xoxo
Monday, January 23, 2006
10:10 PM
DISCLAIMER: if you're so not happy with the following post, dig out your eyeballs. this is a prewarning.
i dont care if you dont care what i've said. thats my opinion. if i feel more comfortable with others, then let me go and let me have my own choice and freedom.
hellos im blogging for geena darling. i shall blog in a different colour, but no i wont mince my words.
okay geena has been having issues ongoing. she decides to address them here. i mean, this is her blog. with FREEDOM OF SPEECH.
its wonderful really. how people claim to love love love God. and there they go, spilling all the eff words out. eff = f. geddit? and so, if you think im talking about you. thats too bad, i dont care. and you people go with all the shortforms. eg . WTF, FYOU, OMFG and blah blah. the list goes on. dont tell me you use freaky/freako/fuk instead of the eff word. -rolls eyes. IF YOU DECIDED TO USE IT IN ANY CASE OF SUBSTITUTING IT, YOU STILL HAD THE BLOODY INTENTION OF THE ORIGINAL WORD PLS. i dont care if you agree or not. its a fact. (: and worse of all, they go round scolding people who use different meanings like what the heck, what the ..? HELLO PLS. H and F are two different characters. i hate to say this. but as an example. eff you and heck you. SO TELL ME DO THEY CONVEY THE SAME MEANING? HECK YOU DOESNT EVEN SOUND RIGHT. if you so dared to say it out of your mouth, cant you just be brave and admit me. so much for remission of sins.
and pls dont go around saying you love God and the next minute, OMFG. like go eat POO pls.
also also.! this is a freeee world pls. i certainly also dont agree that some places are the right place for spirtual learning. dumm deee dumm. even the simplest of receiving the Holy Spirit cannot be fufilled in certain places, how to learn and grow? tsk. high-class eh? all surround sound systems and big big place nicenice aircon eh. SO WHAT.
its just too bad if you dont agree with me. twinnie's blog=my blog. our freedom of speech. moreover, eh man its a LOCKED BLOG? well, you made the choice to enter and read this. nobody forced you. (:
and some people should jolly well stop grossing me out. fat ugly pimplieeeeeee. do you know its you ? pls do have some self-consiousness even though i know you're like super uber thicko skinned.
some ppl, should learn how to be punctual. and stop giving excuses. God's tired of your excuses. so am i. -rolls eyes.
yes yes, i've alot of opinions. certainly, if you're not happy bout it, contact me. reddevil_db07@hotmail.com i'l be waiting.
shall now end off with a verse to ponder on. it applies to certain people who dont realise their devotion is plain superficial.
WHOEVER GOES TO CHURCH COS YOUR FRIENDS GO, ARE PLAIN LOSERS. YOU GO FOR GOD. not your friends.
and stop listening to the same old song over and over lah pls. BORING. conquering one mountain, doesnt mean it'll apply to the rest of the mountains.
Acts2:38-39 "Then Peter said unto them,Repent,and be baptised everyone of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. For the promise is unto you, and to your children, and to all that are afar off,even as many as the Lord our God shall call."
yours truly, JERRICK.
xoxo
Sunday, January 22, 2006
10:10 AM
party was fun. it was supposingly siao leng keng over there. but.hmm. some parts was rather. dull i would say. i guess its because the juniors arent that enthu lah. after all they are shy. but it was really fun. espically all the games right! cause i was the gamemaster for most of the games! HAHA. guess how much they were been tortured. ok obviously they were been tortured lah. but the marco and polo game, if it is spelt correctly was really something that we laughed til we could no longer laugh. the "permanent" marco were lily and hongchow. haha! they were darn funny lah. esp when they got violated =x the water game was super. and once again, im the gamemaster. so guess how wet they got. of course, i got wet too. and i realised, lemon was rather nice to eat after all. haha. poor thing to those who had to slurp tofu, drink milo with raw egg, eat celery, and many others lah. photos are with yongen. so shall wait til she send me then i upload all of them!
please dont push me away in your excitment about the game or about what you are talking about. how would you feel if i push you away just because im talking to someone else. you'll probably think:how rude this person can be. you're just like him.
having lots of random thoughts. betrayer got betrayed. HAHA. what the heck am i talking about. love you,dawn. love those time we used to had in class.
xoxo
Friday, January 20, 2006
3:03 PM
alright, both me and cherryl were suppose to blog something like tt ystd,. but forgot i hope woei chian's chair break today. and, i hope woei chain falls down today.<-this is cherryl's line.
shit, my stomach just told me that i have to go shit. so will make it short. today was rather bad. everyone was like. woah. war ar. well, thats for my class. john and pavan were scolding each other loudly in class, mrs loh just stood there and do nth. after that. many more. oh wells. shrugs. "maybe everyone is p.m.s-ing today."said cherryl haha. i love what we have in plan for our class! i hope they love us for what we've done too! haven been bullying jasmine for long. HAHA. crap, i realised that my clique is falling apart. why? maybe it was alrdy in pieces long ago. oh wells. i miss jj! and that crappy zhenglaoshi. gtg shit now. see you.
and cherryl. HAHA. continue getting influence by the songs that im singing X)
xoxo
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
10:54 PM
"hello.bring my songbook tml and return me before singspiration" "orh ok i try to remember" "oh DONT try to remember and RETURN ME BEFORE SINGSPIRATION TML MORNING. bye." and i hung up im sorry to have loved you.
"hello. and bring my badge tml." "huh. orh ok" "bye."
whatever yea. you realised i dont want to have anything to do with you well. not anymore
"dont you find it so tiring? just let go and move on lah" "dont teach me to do something which you cant even do it yourself. i know it. i know that you cant even do it so dont tell me to do so"
blah blah blah. sorry, but i hope today pierced straight into your heart. oh, even more sorry you forgot what happened didnt you? -shrugs. get out of my life. my heart's hardened towards you and your LAZINESS.
"please, he is not very good. he showed his ass to me. how nice can that be"
all " are quoted from different people. GOODBYE, JERK
xoxo
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
6:07 PM
this was super long ago thing.
and so is this.
pearlyn loves me, cherryl was jealous. haha
well. cherryl and i went town. it was RAINING.=.= and yes, the hilarious part is that we had been RUNNING in the rain ah ha! can you imagine, GEENA NEO running in the rain gosh. i told myself i would never ever do that in my whole life. but apparently i did it today ._. hahaha. i cant believe it. but we were like two idiots running, and laughin. haha. we couldnt believe that we were running under the rain. retards and there was this part, i ran, i COLLIDED into this man. he pushed me, i stepped back. and you know what? cherryl pushed me infront HILARIOUS. haha. it was like. front back front. yea. and that sponge, she was like. eh we're wet lets take photos! (raises one eyebrow) there you go.
i still think this picture is soo funny and cute!
xoxo
2 A.M. and the rain is falling Here we are at the crossroads once again You're tellin me you're so confused You can't make up your mind Is this meant to be You're asking me
But only love can say -- try again or walk away But I believe for you and me The sun will shine one day So I'll just play my part And pray you'll have a change of heart But I can't make you see it through That's something only love can do
In your arms as the dawn is breaking Face to face and a thousand miles apart I've tried my best to make you see There's hope beyond the pain If we give enough -- if we learn to trust
(chorus)
I know if I could find the words To touch you deep inside You'd give our dream just one more chance Don't let this be our last good-bye
(chorus)
there are words that mean alot to me, to remind me. but i rather not highlight them or what so ever. today was hilarious. shall blog it later.
with nothing, nothing but the question why
xoxo
Monday, January 16, 2006
10:27 PM
so what if i miss you, so what if i miss the times we had. so what. so what if i want it back, so what if i want/need you. face it, geena. time's up. stop regretting, it will never be the same again.
you'll just be another friend that i've lost. ilovedyou.
xoxo
rahh. the truth hurts.
twinnie, now i truly understand. if the sincerity is gone. theres no point forcing. whats the point? it is like forcing a dog to pee when it doesnt want to, eat when its full. what will happen in the end? it will turn back and bite you. i dont know what connection. but they are just my random thoughts. stop doing what i did to you back to me.itwouldonlycausemorehurtandworseconsquences.
"draw the line, end the story" quoted from somebody. GOODBYE, my love.
sponge, dont be upset. patrick also very upset. i dont want to study ss and geog. my concentration is getting worse. thats really bad, geena my brain is being fried. senses arent working properly.
xoxo
Saturday, January 14, 2006
12:26 PM
stop giving me this superficial crap, thankyou. i really dont need it. get away from me satan.
where are you people when i miss you all so badly, i miss the times we were really so bonded like one. dont you miss the times you had in your primary school too?
xoxo
i better stop complaining. if not, i will become like joeline auntie. everyday got something to complain. haha kidding.
im trying.
anyway, for ppl who wana tag this board. click on the message box first. den click on the name. den you can type your name, and write your message and tag alrdy (: will rmb to change my tagboard after headstart(: cant remember what else i gtg say. sponge, cheer up. patrick is just next door ok. loves.
thanks jiawen for telling me again. im tired. anyway. what jiawen said is left in my mind. hmm, how to say. yea. like. i wont forget it and somehow it probably made an impact there. ahh i dont know what shit im talking cause my brain is only half functioning. but. yea.will think about it when i have a clear mind. and start doing something bout my defination of friendship, and start doing something to my attitude. thanks again jiawen. (:
xoxo
i conclude my organs are failing me. =/ sohjinying said he said hello to me, shouted my name infront of me when i was boarding the bus. but i couldnt rmb anything bout anyone calling me. that day i saw hazel and xinhui laughing at wong cc at their seats ( middle of classroom) den hazel tells me she sits in the centre row of her class, n she says xinhui sits near the door are my organs failing me? there must be something wrong with me.
school was as usual. blehh. sponge and pat cant laugh/ go hyper like the 1st-2nd day of school. boo. i wonder why and her specs broke. haha =x
i cant believe i "bullyed" this lower sec guy during recess today =x he cut queue from the right, where the metal bar is. then he ordered his food. and i said. oi! dont cut queue!go and queue up at the back! then i pointed to the back he looked at me. den he ran one round to the front and took his food. then i said. cut queue later choke on your food ah! i didnt know that i was being mean =x til cherryl was like. eh why you so mean one. then i was like. oh ya. very mean hor. den i told him. okok kidding dont choke on your food ok.
i forgot that leopard would never change his spots. shrugs. maybe,maybe not.
xoxo
Thursday, January 12, 2006
4:42 PM
i dont know why im in such a irritated mood. but just let me rant ok. if you dont wish to get affected then dont read.
i dont understand why do people LAUGH when you're really upset. and feel as though its like the lowest moment of your life and just hope that people would lend a listening ear. many of them just LAUGH. the worse of all, some of them dont even give a damn that you msged/msn/tell them you're unhappy and stuff. or maybe they are both equal. i'm really. shocked? disappointed?angry. i would say im pissed now. and people who dont do anything for this friendship. forget about it ok? i dont wish to get disappointed realising that all these while, my efforts of trying to maintain this friendship has gone down the drain. dont ask me who is this person, i wont say. but this is one GREAT example. im orange, the other party in red.
it's lost. says: rahh it's lost. says: ): When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says: lol it's lost. says: stpo laughin at unnecessary things, thank you When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says: ... it's lost. says: im serious it's lost. says: you never asked why when i always showed an unhappy face or was upset. it's lost. says: all you did was laugh laugh laugh and lol. When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says: .... When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says: sry al.. When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says: busy... When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says: gotta reply fast lo.. it's lost. says: stop dot-ing me thank you. When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says: dotz it's lost. says: even when you were free you never bother to ask. it's lost. says: and you never bothered to try to save this friendship when it was on the verge of getting lost and can never be found again.
its true. i realised that i have been the one always calling calling and finding time to spend time with these people. its like. hey. if you dont bother trying, tell me ok? i would like to give up too. or maybe i wont try in the first case.
xoxo
dont know what to say, dont know what to blog. three down, five more to go. darn chemistry and freaking humanities plus irritating maths. i dont know whats wrong with me and all the cursing =/ ok i take them all back. grrr. im really suffering from stm. im sorry ppl whom i always call and say oh no i forgot what i wanted to tell you and its real important. the impt stuffs always got forgotten in the end anyway.
time to face the truth, stop thinking that things would change. it wont. nothing will. will you ever realise how i feel? time to put all these into actions. and stop deceiving yourself, geena. so long.
xoxo
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
2:05 PM
dont try understanding, you wont know how to
i dont what to say about you. i do feel rather upset cause youre unhappy. but what can i do. i dont even know where i stand. as friend. anot. i think you can survive relatively well without me. i dont know you. you were never easy to understand. when you so things. i would think that you have a motive. its either you, or me. you were the one who spolit what was fine. but yet maybe you were the one who brought us closer. did you? whatever. stop acting so fake. that isnt the way. i think this is sooo superficial. i dont know what to say about you.
enoughbout rubbish. im hungry again. but i just finished lunch less than 5 mins ago. this is bad. anyway, you really reply my msg superrrrrr fasttt until i think the next reply would either take 3 hours to come if not it wont even come. i found "the other part of me" hahaha. i know what to do when i want to talk to myself.
oh wells. gtg STUDY now. blehh. ): see you.
xoxo
Monday, January 09, 2006
4:23 PM
): the day haven been good for me. school was borrringgg. i found tt i had been sitting there in class for the whole day, staring at the board, stoning. all the things that my teachers said went in and out straight away. i dont know wads wrong with me
i went crazy with cherryl for bout 2-3 times today. maybe more than that. i tried hugging a wall. but i failed. school is really boring lah ok. thinking of all the tests alrdy like. make me. arghh.
i dont know why im feeling like this. everytime im in school im happy. once im alone thoughts flood in just like that. whatever; i shallnt do anything anymore. its killing me. at least i've done my part all these while.
study hard, geena. other people who have headstart, please study hard too. loves
xoxo
Sunday, January 08, 2006
10:06 PM
i would say. sigh. i wont say it. forget it. whats the problem with me! i keep having negative thoughts about everything i see can): i cant carry on like that! its like. so meann! gee.
im used to it anyways. you never seem to prove what i think of you wrong. oh wells. i failed doing my part as a friend too. have i? whatever
ahhh! see my neagtive thoughts again): CHERRYLUM! STOP BULLYING ME LAH!
xoxo
someone help me d/l leaving on a jet plane, superwoman. and all atomic kitten songs. thanks! love.
xoxo
SCREAMSSSSS. my mind is sooo not with me ): i need to concentrate and study for my headstart. but obviously i cant. my mind is here. and there. ): i keep thinking and thinking. i dont know why are you in my head. you arent suppose to be here. GO AWAY.
somebody pleasee slap me awake. i cant afford to take the wrong path again.
xoxo
Thursday, January 05, 2006
2:56 PM
I, I don't know why I miss you so much Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch You, you left me feeling high and dry With nothing, nothing but the queston why Yeah you, I guess you had another direction And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection
Chorus: If you call me today I'll say that I'm fine But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice It's just a lie You knew what you had You still walked away leaving me in this mess My love for you is deep and meaningless
the person i was lying to, was me. all the while i thought i was fine. well. the answer is obvious now isnt it.
im sorry cherryl. you knew there was something wrong with me. i was trying hard to convince myself there was nothing wrong, and really didnt want to talk about it. but, wad was the problem in the first case?
confusion; i have chosen to walk this path. and i will be strong. i shall not regret again.
i dont understand. why. why do i always get it when it was too late. why do i always feel only after it has passed for a long time.
and on the other hand, im still thinking. i dont know why. but everything came running back to me you are important. but now i ask myself. are you worth this importance in my life. i guess its you partially that made me feel like that today i dont know. i really dont. maybe it teaches me a lesson. so what if i knew it. whats the big deal i would say. theres still many questions in my head that i would like to ask. but it would probably screw this whole thing.
maybe you would find someone else better. im sorry to have made you do such a hard work of trying to make me happy. i hope you have learnt. its not talking about the same person btw.
There are many things left to remind me Of a love that I just can't leave behind me