yes, im pissed. im pissed as well as hurt. you were the last person i tot would haf brought such a great disappointment to me.
you noe how much it takes for me to take the fact. tt you were the one tts doin this to me. i was a fool all along. i was the one lying to myself all along. thinkin tt i was alright. i tot you would no longer leave me der. but i was wrong. oh so wrong.
i shall b strong n never let this affect me cause im used to it. yes im.
stop taking me for granted. im telling you. one last time.
never going to trust you again.
xoxo
Sunday, September 25, 2005
12:00 AM
advise: if you cant make a sense of wad i usually type, den dun bother readin. it wont do you any good. n to those hu think tt they noe me really good inside out. think again. dun bother readin this entry too. you wont figure out anythin.
everythin is a lie. once again.
i realised tt i was actually very tolerant all these while. i duno wad is this. yea, i dun understand this myself. all these while this was juz an ice block. i cant stand it anymore. didnt realised it til now. the weakness is me. all along. i duno wads wrong wif all this things. do i really understand this? the emotions are all running wild. not knowing where they were actually from. why is this happening? this wasnt suppose to b like tt. but yet. if it were like tt. den dun you gain an advantage? but so wad if you gain? i dun get it. do you? no, you shouldnt cause you arent suppose to even read this. dazed. shake me out of this please, stop lying to me please, all of you. i cant take it anymore.
so, do you get wad i mean? no rite. told you so.
xoxo
Sunday, September 18, 2005
5:46 PM
ok, im pissed. these maybe words of anger or wad but i mean it. i mean it.
if you wana think tt tt stupid white crow is bad luck to you den all the best cause i cant stand ppl hu believe in this kinda things n those hu are supersititious. if you wana think tt you saw the white crow n on tt day you broke up wif her. den think all you wan. you were like this all along, insensitive to my feelings. tt means you actually rmb the facts but yet i clearly rmb tt when i ask you you actually say i cant rmb. you are indeed a great liar. thanks for leading me to believe all your lies.
xoxo
Thursday, September 15, 2005
11:10 PM
ok. firstly. i would like to apolojise. the previous post is kinda harsh. they are juz words of anger; so dun take it to heart yea?
but yet, i mean some words tt i say. yes, words can hurt. n i hope it wont b another time of me me me n my fault again. we told you wad we tot it was wrong, if you think tt we are in the wrong den you can tell us. shall not say much alrdy
n ders still ppl i wana tell them off. n i shall give them face by not sayin their name. number 1 n 2. yes you two. im giving you 2 faces cause of her ok. dun take it for granted cos i seriously had wanted to tell you off right infront of u long time ago yes i wan to. you juz watch out for ur ownself incase one day some1 comes threatening you n wantin to dig out ur eyeballs for being so kapoh ok. shall not tok bout you
n you. yes you. please rmb tt you are a GB girl ok. you dun come acting like one stupid chao ahlian in front of me im pissed. after all im your senior so you dun come pushin tt powerful body part of yours IN FRONT OF MY FACE n tok some crap tt i dun understand. n after i tell you off can you please go think bout wad i say instead of even threatenin me even more. dun think tt im afraid of you or tt "powerful"body part of yours. if you dare or you haf the guts den punch me anywhere you like. yes i will let you punch me n report you to the disclipine com. n im serious bout it. oh yeas. can i please remind you tt you are a girl. not a guy.
xoxo
blogger had something wrong. but yet im typing this again cause im still angry. it was actually "forgive n forget" til i read some1's blog.
yes, so sad but i dun understand how you feel. den do you understand how i feel? i wasnt the one hu asked you to keep quiet or shut up. neither was i the one hu forced you to do anythin. you chose it to do it tt way yourself.
first you say its ur fault. stop sayin its ME ME ME n MY fault.
i didnt stop you from going recess wif us. neither did any of us. we didnt say or put up a sign "WE WAN YOU TO GO RECESS YOURSELF" but den if you lied, den why shld we believe you? der isnt a need to thank me for it cause i had nth to do wif it n i did not play a part in ask you to go recess BY YOURSELF.
if its ME ME ME n MY fault. n its only between both of us den you wouldnt ignore joyce or show her a black face. if its between us you would haf gone recess wif them n NOT TOK TO ME ONLY.
short temper den wad makes you think you haf a very good temper tt can tolerate every thin? you too flare up sometimes for no reason. oh n tell me when ever haf i slam things around huh. i would only do it if i were angry n you do it too ok. since its a torture den you are welcome to change seats any point of time. i dun mind.
you claim tt " i am almost NEVER angry wif you." stop lying. you knew yourself how many times haf we argued last time n i was the one hu kept calling n msging you n apolojising.
hu was the one hu said this " tell me if i haf done somethin wrong" or somthin like tt. n after telling tt person tt person goes ANGRY for the WHOLE DAY. n please stop being too dependent on others. you too do things tt when ppl do it to you you dun like.
this used to affect me tt much. not anymore. not a single bit.
THIS IS TO CHERRYL LUM CHING MUN. if you haf any comments, pls tell tt STRAIGHT IN MY FACE n not say you you you. oh yeas. I WILL GROW UP N WILL STOP BEING CHILDISH N LAME N HAVING A CRAPPY ATTITUDE. dun regret your words.
xoxo
Friday, September 09, 2005
11:19 PM
AHHHHH we wanted to take photo where TT CHOPPED UP WOMAN BODY PART GOT THROWN AWAY OK.
xoxo
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
7:31 PM
today went out wif dawn koh to play n study yea had lots of fun. ate long john. den studied. den went topshop n espirit to try on clothes. YEA! heh. i wan tt top n skirt. she wan those skirts!
hmmm. wheres our rich men to buy those stuffs for us! denn. yep went subway to EAT AGAIN. n laugh at ppl hahaha. laughin n studying lah. yepp. den took more photos. look around. n went home. yeaa! took lots of photos. oh yea! some RICH GUY kindly sponsor DAWN KOH to watch the perfect match the longest yard cinderella man red eye. n some other movies!
it would b soon before you receive my letter.
xoxo
Monday, September 05, 2005
2:02 PM
ai. haf been wanting to blog this long time ago but couldnt find time too. dun you tink my sotong is so cute! i tink he is lah!
ystd i was juz lying on my bed n talkin to him. too lazy to wake up. den he was like. wad!you're still lying on your bed! den i told him ai lazy la going to get up to eat only. n he went like *snort snort* (girly voice) i wan to eat! *snort snort* (girly voice) i wan my food! hahahhas. too bad for him i recorded tt down! hahahas.
n der are many many things tt he did was so cute but no time to blog lah. heh. oh yea. ignore that previous post X)
xoxo
Friday, September 02, 2005
11:12 PM
everybody thinks that im so perfectly alright but the truth is that im not. almost every night n morning haf been tryin to mug for a silly test that makes a difference in my exam marks; gettin these super so big eye bag tt even an outsider saw it even far away. i duno wad m i tokin.
but yet i see myself puttin in effort to work hard n tryin a little harder but yet all you do is to scream at me for nth n juz make me feel so frustuated wif life n every other thin.
you think tt im not upset wif my results but its all so hidden well enough. you think tt i dun work hard enough n you never bother to ask if its anythin else tt im not doin good. you think tt i dun wana study hard to get a better life n get into tt jc that i desire. do you even noe wads tt jc tt i desire. you never bother to ask.
im actually feelin all so terrible all because of all of you. that i actually dislike to even come home now. or even think bout home now. im juz returning home early to aviod tt fear tt you would start callin my phone n screamin at me or scream at me for no reason when i reach home or threaten me wif stuffs.or to lock me out of the house. you dun understand me. infact, you never understood me. i had alrdy made up my mind to juz work hard but yet you never fail to make me feel like such a failure that can never get wad i wan. or mayb im expecting too much. i dun even wana tok to you now. when would you understand me?