deborah spoke my mind for me. i share extact sentiments with her.
xoxo
i wish i have the freedom to say whatever i want. however, this is not possible. i wish i could tell this friend of my my feelings now. i wish i could tell this friend to look at things now. but i guess this friend knows. well, this friend doesnt want to do anything, so why should i. not that im having a heck care attitude, but i have been putting in too much efforts. too much hope. whatever. much nonsense me and my friend have been up to lately.
i love that colourful background.
DAWN KOH STINK! =D
i know it look kinda wrong, we were playing and she asked me to pole dance.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. thats what shes screaming.
FLIGHT INFORMATION: CHENNAI ; TAKING OFF AT 2100 ; FLIGHT A1 414 =D
xoxo
Sunday, April 23, 2006
7:13 PM
another lovely sunday. lovely. irony. my day started off real great, with my friend scolding F-U-C-K at me, right infront of me how great is today. i found that my opinion with the majority of the class is like, the total opposite. that makes me sound like the workers party, but its a one-man show kinda thing. and i had a headache in the middle of the stupid class. well, i thought i was fine, just a tiny thing. til it became really bad. i felt my knee buckle from the time i stood up to walk towards the second floor toilet, and realised it was packed. and i almost threw up while walking up the escalator to the third floor. rahh. the worst was yet to come. after which my parents brought me to the market to eat. obviously i didnt had any appetite and i felt really bad til i just lie down on the table, trying to sleep. that was how much i felt like dying. oh well, when we were about to leave, i finally threw up. i think i threw up the hydrochloride acid in my stomach,along with the mucus on my stomach bag. oh wells. i thought i would be fine. i bought a kaya waffle. i ate half. and i fell asleep at my tuition teacher house. it was super embarassing. everyone was staring at me as i woke up. after that, i threw up that kaya waffle i ate. again. it was really horrible. the funny thing was, when i was about to get out of the toilet, my friend came knocking on the door. i opened, she asked if i was alright. and she said they thought i fainted.i was even more embarrassed when i walked into the class with everyone staring at me again!
nice sunday, what a nice day i had. love you people, dont have such a horrid experience that i had today.
xoxo
Friday, April 14, 2006
3:56 PM
alrights. i know im supposed to be studying. i love life.(: this stupid boy is so stupid. i said, yes i just went towning yesterday. he said. where is that? i said, town=orchard. you know what he replied?
oh very good u ReAd bEtWeEn ThE LiNes........ says: picking apples u ReAd bEtWeEn ThE LiNes........ says: hehehe haha
HE IS REALLY ONE EXAMPLE OF A BAD NUT! he's driving me nuts too. haha.
anyway, TAKE THE LEAD (: if you like dancing, then you're made to dance. i'm going to make the world appreciate arts. singpore,specifically. yes, just take a look at the bengs and lians what would happen if you make them attend a arts performance? the bengs would probably spew nth but vulgars. and the lians will be littering the floor with hair by combing it continuously seriously speaking, look at the teenagers nowadays. how many of them really truly understand and appreciate arts? dont they realise that it takes more than it is to actually stand up there on the stage, infront of thousands of people, conquering not only nervousness and stage fright, but they have to keep reminding themselves to not make the mistakes they usually do. it takes hours and days and hard work to probably coordinate the whole group and put up probably 10 minutes of performance. nope, singaporean dont care at all. so, i'm going to change the attitudes of people. like dulaine(:
oh wells, i'm definately going to watch more of those arts show now. and truly learn to appreciate them (:
well,life has been great. but dont always take things for granted and rely on "invisible" stuffs. and i realised that what i've thought of this to be is actually true. well, quite. does it hurt me? i guess it would hurt last time. not anymore. i've decided not to make that effort anymore. because i dont want to be the one and only one clearing up the mess. and this mess, is a really big untidy one. because it has accumulated over years,over time. sad to say, i really have decided to wash my hands off this. whats the point, of trying so hard. i dont want to feel so hurt anymore. so, i've turned to someone i can really trust all the time. this friend would never ever fail me, i know.
infact, even if we clear this up. i wont be able to trust you like how i did before. and yes, i'm not referring to anyone, pointing at anyone. if you want to assume its you, let it be. you can try asking me, who is is, if you want. if you know me, you should very well know what would my reply be.
i'm sorry people, i know i rant quite alot. shrugs. see you, love.
xoxo
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
7:12 PM
hello(: i've just finished writing geek in the pink lyrics hand is tired. heh. played prank on this boy blading today i went like. BOO! hah. he was like, hey! begineer only! haha. if only he fell. ok i shall not be mean. i want to play ball. and sad to say i can only do that next monday. this week isnt very relax either. aye aye aye.
me and ninny quay talked alot today. heh. love the name i created for her? ninny quay. alrights, however it is supposed to be spelt. we practically talked while going round and round the carpark. heh. mother nature is so lovable (: you know what? i forgot what i wanted to blog =/ i shallnt waste my brain cells trying to recall. see you, LOVE!
xoxo
Thursday, April 06, 2006
9:08 PM
hello people (: my ambition changed again. i dont want to be forensic scientist, in whatever ways you are supposed to spell it. i dont want to care about how that corpse infront of me dead, neither do i want to cut their bodies and dig out their organs. instead, i found myself loving mother nature. and you know what? i thought of being someone who take care of the trees/environment etc. like,work in the zoo/vet/nature reserve. but i think i would want to be a photographer instead. yes, i'm going to capture the beautiful mother nature in my camera. yes, i'm just going to do so. i'm going to let the world appreciate this perfect world God has created. and those cute moving creatures like ELEPHANT. hah, clumsy elephants. and i'm going to take those pitful children/eldery suffering. this is to let the world see those people in need and to actually let them realise how fortunate they are, and i want those photos to actually move the people's heart and let the people reach out to those in need.
well, im not sure if my ambition will change again, but meanwhile. yes, i'm just going to do that (: i love my running timing. hee. sorry if i overexaggerate.
i find myself sliding towards that pit i was crawling out. was. slowly, bit by bit. but now i find myself slipping.. closer and closer again. geena, you've gotta be strong.
random, random, random. love you people, God bless.