so much for wanting to spend time with you people and so much for planning and trying to make sure everyone can come. so what if you have something crop up last min, you said to come with us first. i know you might want to know others better and bond with new people, but you agreed us to go out with us first and you did not tell us until we told you.
so much for a clique. yes, why don't you people just form your own clique and everything, and just leave me alone. i do not mind being by myself in class and everything. here i am, trying so hard to squeeze time out with you people despite my hectic schedule and 3/4 of my homework undone but noone seems to be caring.
ask yourself, do you even think we are like a clique. we are more like a class clique. we do not even go out once the bell rings, there goes the clique. half the time some of us can just disappear just like that. are we even fit to be called a clique? what is a class clique? perhaps just people you hang out with in class. in that case, actually, anyone can just form a class clique. i do not wish to rant anymore. whatever.
xoxo
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
8:09 PM
i am frustrated. i dont care whether you hate me anot. and i dont care whats going on with your life anymore. as much as you wish(if you really do in the first case) to get out of this stupid thing and lead your happy-go-lucky life again, i wish to help you as well. but the countless advises said never seemed to work they probably got out of your other ear the moment you walked away. you always say so but you never do so. you never do so. which makes what you always say a lie. nothing but a lie. somehow, i feel that you are another letdown, and i feel that you are practically the same as her. shrugs. since i have advise people not to care so much about friendship problems, i shall not care so much anyway. friends like this do not usually last too.
xoxo
Friday, June 02, 2006
11:01 PM
ooohhhH! i wish you can get lost now and just keep quiet! my goodness.i cant wait to stuff something in your mouth and tie up your hands so you can stop chatting with me
xoxo
i wish i could go to the barberque yesterday. and eat my MARSHMALLOWS! i loveee barberqued, golden brown, hard on the outside but it melts into your mouth when you bite it marshmallows. aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh but yet, i rather not see you. shrugs. i know i cant aviod you at all but i just want to not see you as much as i can. nah. i just dont wish to see you at all. i dont know.
i just read linyun blog. and i felt nothing much but just yea, she havent gotten over her ex and just thinking about the fun and love they had. until i read this. 'It feels jittery to being treated like a total stranger today, we were so close before yet we were pretending as if we didnt know each other.' shrugs. it true, aint it. and i brought me back to that time when i was still so clinging on to marcus. screw it, i was so naive thinking of returning to the old times. and i realised that such a great friendship actually turned out to be a sour, bitter ending. no, a great close friendship became a sweet loving romance that ended up having an ugly ending. it makes me feel sad thinking of all the friends that you had but you lost it just because you were foolish enough to believe in the fairytale stories, 'and they lived happily ever after, forever' why are we, a sixteen year old teenage, growing to be a muture adult still so foolish? i guess its all part and parcel of life. yes it is. without it i guess we would be like SHOCKWAVE(a guy's nickname) having gone through no pain and sufferings that make us whimper and start screaming for mummy when something bad happens to us and we do not know what to do. i suppose i have gotten over him, all thanks to the time that heals. for me, it really does heal me, i guess. and all thanks to all my friends who had been there for me. (:
LOVE YOU PEOPLE! see you! =D
xoxo
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
8:42 PM
paul twohill is such a retard, i conclude. but yet i love him. sorry, i meant his voice okay. but hes voice is really great, plus his retarded-ness, i feel like slapping him! HAHAHAHAHAHA.
school was crazy as usual. just that i feel bad for screaming at john and making such a big fuss. ahh, i shall learn from my lesson and learn to control my temper more (: stupid gregory, make me type such a long message and HE WENT OFFLINE!!!!! and im hungry. if im free later on i would blog about today. LOVE!
xoxo
Friday, May 26, 2006
11:00 PM
screw blogger, eat up my photos.
xoxo
as i've said, photos.(: i wish there's someone to entertain me always.
thanks to that stupid boss i had to do that in class.
LUM!
i enjoy irritating her on the bus
ready for war!
pearl=bad photographer
xoxo
Thursday, May 18, 2006
7:02 PM
my day was great. i think. hahahaha. i see no point coming for school since they arent returning my papers, lessons resumed=free periods. they might as well change them all to chinese.ok, i was just kidding, dont kill me ok. im going to start changing my habits, and i dont wish to see you meanwhile. so SCRAM! anyway, you're such a liar, and i think you have not change a single bit. im so glad i aint your friend anymore.
well, i may seem to be alright over here. but i know my thoughts are sometimes here and there. and i still dont get why am i trying to hard to salvage our friendship. why am i still thinking about it? well, its not as if i have done something wrong right, and not to you right. so, why am i so afraid of you? why should i be when i believe that i have done nothing wrong at all, but in fact i feel that you have been the one not doing anything all these while. crap, you this 'friend'. shrugs. dont tell me it is because i have changed to become materialistic. because if you think that way, and you are my friend. you would accept me for who i am. BUT. you are supposed to be the one who come to me and tell me how much i've changed and you are supposed to one who change me. yet, you did not do that. so, why should i care? you did not care a single bit, so why should i? you probably wont be reading this, and even if you do, i dont care because this is frankly how i feel. nah, you probably even forgetten that i existed. i wonder why did i try so hard for a friendship not worth. yep, not worth it at all. you dont give a damn for the past few times when this happen, why did i cry so much for it? i should have known better than to trust you again and again. somehow i knew this was the real you yet i kept lying to myself again and again. so that you are my 'friend'. darn, im such a fool.
and i've learnt. not to put in so much for a friendship not worth it at all.
xoxo
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
8:14 PM
crap. blogger doesnt seem to let me upload more than 5 photos at a go and the nexyt time i upload it never seem to appear, so here are the rest. (:
look at cherrylumchingmun.shes a retard. haha.
CLIQUE! (: without xinyi though.
xoxo
hello people. i've got more awesome stuff to upload. haha, nah its just my clique's day out (: heh, had a fun day out. and crapping at cherrylum's house.
typical joyce
what more can i say?
ok, attention is not on me and mj cause we both look retarded. haha. well, mj and cher's cute guy is behind you see. tsk tsk.
