Lord change my life

2006-06-21T19:46:00.000+08:00

so much for wanting to spend time with you people and so much for planning and trying to make sure everyone can come.
so what if you have something crop up last min, you said to come with us first.
i know you might want to know others better and bond with new people, but you agreed us to go out with us first and you did not tell us until we told you.

so much for a clique.
yes, why don't you people just form your own clique and everything, and just leave me alone.
i do not mind being by myself in class and everything.
here i am, trying so hard to squeeze time out with you people despite my hectic schedule and 3/4 of my homework undone but noone seems to be caring.

ask yourself, do you even think we are like a clique.
we are more like a class clique.
we do not even go out
once the bell rings, there goes the clique.
half the time some of us can just disappear just like that.
are we even fit to be called a clique?
what is a class clique?
perhaps just people you hang out with in class.
in that case, actually, anyone can just form a class clique.
i do not wish to rant anymore.
whatever.

2006-06-06T20:09:00.000+08:00

i am frustrated.
i dont care whether you hate me anot.
and i dont care whats going on with your life anymore.
as much as you wish(if you really do in the first case) to get out of this stupid thing and lead your happy-go-lucky life again, i wish to help you as well.
but the countless advises said never seemed to work
they probably got out of your other ear the moment you walked away.
you always say so but you never do so.
you never do so.
which makes what you always say a lie.
nothing but a lie.
somehow, i feel that you are another letdown, and i feel that you are practically the same as her.
shrugs.
since i have advise people not to care so much about friendship problems, i shall not care so much anyway.
friends like this do not usually last too.

2006-06-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

ooohhhH! i wish you can get lost now and just keep quiet!
my goodness.i cant wait to stuff something in your mouth and tie up your hands so you can stop chatting with me

2006-06-02T21:33:00.000+08:00

i wish i could go to the barberque yesterday.
and eat my MARSHMALLOWS!
i loveee barberqued, golden brown, hard on the outside but it melts into your mouth when you bite it marshmallows.
aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh
but yet, i rather not see you.
shrugs.
i know i cant aviod you at all but i just want to not see you as much as i can. nah. i just dont wish to see you at all.
i dont know.

i just read linyun blog. and i felt nothing much but just yea, she havent gotten over her ex and just thinking about the fun and love they had.
until i read this.
'It feels jittery to being treated like a total stranger today, we were so close before yet we were pretending as if we didnt know each other.'
shrugs. it true, aint it.
and i brought me back to that time when i was still so clinging on to marcus. screw it, i was so naive thinking of returning to the old times.
and i realised that such a great friendship actually turned out to be a sour, bitter ending.
no, a great close friendship became a sweet loving romance that ended up having an ugly ending.
it makes me feel sad thinking of all the friends that you had but you lost it just because you were foolish enough to believe in the fairytale stories, 'and they lived happily ever after, forever'
why are we, a sixteen year old teenage, growing to be a muture adult still so foolish?
i guess its all part and parcel of life.
yes it is. without it i guess we would be like SHOCKWAVE(a guy's nickname) having gone through no pain and sufferings that make us whimper and start screaming for mummy when something bad happens to us and we do not know what to do.
i suppose i have gotten over him, all thanks to the time that heals.
for me, it really does heal me, i guess.
and all thanks to all my friends who had been there for me.
(:

LOVE YOU PEOPLE! see you! =D

2006-05-31T20:42:00.000+08:00

paul twohill is such a retard, i conclude.
but yet i love him.
sorry, i meant his voice okay.
but hes voice is really great, plus his retarded-ness, i feel like slapping him! HAHAHAHAHAHA.

school was crazy as usual.
just that i feel bad for screaming at john and making such a big fuss.
ahh, i shall learn from my lesson and learn to control my temper more (:
stupid gregory, make me type such a long message and HE WENT OFFLINE!!!!!
and im hungry. if im free later on i would blog about today.
LOVE!

2006-05-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

screw blogger, eat up my photos.

2006-05-26T22:52:00.000+08:00

as i've said, photos.(:
i wish there's someone to entertain me always.

thanks to that stupid boss i had to do that in class.

LUM!

i enjoy irritating her on the bus

ready for war!

pearl=bad photographer

2006-05-18T19:02:00.000+08:00

my day was great.
i think. hahahaha.
i see no point coming for school since they arent returning my papers, lessons resumed=free periods. they might as well change them all to chinese.ok, i was just kidding, dont kill me ok.
im going to start changing my habits, and i dont wish to see you meanwhile. so SCRAM!
anyway, you're such a liar, and i think you have not change a single bit.
im so glad i aint your friend anymore.

well, i may seem to be alright over here.
but i know my thoughts are sometimes here and there.
and i still dont get why am i trying to hard to salvage our friendship.
why am i still thinking about it?
well, its not as if i have done something wrong right, and not to you right.
so, why am i so afraid of you?
why should i be when i believe that i have done nothing wrong at all, but in fact i feel that you have been the one not doing anything all these while.
crap, you this 'friend'.
shrugs. dont tell me it is because i have changed to become materialistic.
because if you think that way, and you are my friend.
you would accept me for who i am.
BUT. you are supposed to be the one who come to me and tell me how much i've changed and you are supposed to one who change me.
yet, you did not do that.
so, why should i care?
you did not care a single bit, so why should i?
you probably wont be reading this, and even if you do, i dont care because this is frankly how i feel.
nah, you probably even forgetten that i existed.
i wonder why did i try so hard for a friendship not worth.
yep, not worth it at all.
you dont give a damn for the past few times when this happen, why did i cry so much for it?
i should have known better than to trust you again and again.
somehow i knew this was the real you yet i kept lying to myself again and again. so that you are my 'friend'.
darn, im such a fool.

and i've learnt. not to put in so much for a friendship not worth it at all.

2006-05-17T20:14:00.000+08:00

crap. blogger doesnt seem to let me upload more than 5 photos at a go and the nexyt time i upload it never seem to appear, so here are the rest. (:

look at cherrylumchingmun.shes a retard. haha.

CLIQUE! (: without xinyi though.

2006-05-17T19:40:00.000+08:00

hello people. i've got more awesome stuff to upload.
haha, nah its just my clique's day out (:
heh, had a fun day out. and crapping at cherrylum's house.

typical joyce

what more can i say?

ok, attention is not on me and mj cause we both look retarded. haha. well, mj and cher's cute guy is behind you see. tsk tsk.

2006-05-16T15:21:00.000+08:00

hahaha. hello people.
so, hows life.
oral is kinda great today, i guess.
chinese, again, i doubt i will do well.
shrugs.
sammie is really funny, that small girl
hahaha

well.
i was thinking about some stuffs again.
well, i suppose everyone of us has experienced this before,
losing contact with a friend.
and when you suddenly remember that friend of yours,
you wish you two couldbe like how you were in the past.
but you actually realised that your friend has changed.
shrugs, somehow i feel that that often happens to me
an exception of a few though.
sometimes i just wish that my friend would belike my friend that i used to have. but yet things would never be the same again.
and when you began to feel sad that you seem to have lost a friend, you can no longer click well with your friend anymore, fun memories of you and your friend had flood back to you.

whatever, i've decided to show you awesome stuff!

love mother nature! (:

i think they look kinda retarded wearing uniform taking a train. like my penguin, RETARD!

LOOK AT THE WAY THAT GIRL WITH THE GREEN SKIRT IS SITTING. I WISH I COULD ZOOM MORE JUST TO TAKE HER FACE AND SHOW YOU ALL. ITS REALLY DISGRACEFUL. REALLY.

people say, keep the best for last. oranGEENA! (: hahahhaa

2006-05-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

SOMEBODY,TELL ME WHATS THE POINT OF BOTTLING UP ALL THESE FEELINGS. THEY ONLY MAKE ME FEEL SO MUCH MORE WORSE. IM FEELING UPSET, DISAPPOINTED AND HURT. AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO.NOT EXCATLY NOTHING, BUT HISTORY IS REPEATING ITSELF ONCE AGAIN. AND I DONT WISH TO DO ANYTHING ANYMORE. YOU CAN TELL ME, IS IT REALLY WORTH IT, TWELVE YEARS OR MORE OF FRIENDSHIP, JUST DOWN THE DRAIN LIKE THAT. BUT WHATS THE POINT WHEN ALL ALONG I HAVE BEEN THE ONE TRYING SO HARD TO KEEP US FROM DISTANCING? WHATS THE POINT, DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL AT TIMES. NO YOU DONT. YOU, MY TWELVE-YEARS FRIEND, I FOUND THAT YOU ACTUALLY DONT UNDERSTAND ME AT ALL.WHY IS IT THAT YOU ARE DOING THINGS FOR YOUR FRIENDSHIPS IN YOUR SCHOOL AND DOING NOTHING FOR OURS, LEAVING EVERYTHING TO ME. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO ACTUALLY ALREADY KEEP IN CONTACT FROM SOMEONE IN TOTAL DIFFERENT SCHOOL AND SURROUNDINGS? YOU PROBABLY DO OR DO NOT, I DO NOT KNOW. BUT WHAT I KNOW IS THAT YOU DO NOT DO ANYTHING FOR OUR FRIENDSHIP. WHAT I DO KNOW IS THAT YOU ALWAYS SAY THAT YOU WOULD DO THIS AND THAT BUT YOU NEVER ONCE DOES IT. WHY, WHY ARE YOUR WORDS NOTHING BUT LIES TO ME. DO YOU ACTUALLY CONSIDER MY FEELINGS WHEN YOU SAY THINGS THAT YOU DONT MEAN. DO YOU KNOW HOW DO I FEEL. NO YOU DONT. ALL YOU KNOW HOW TO DO WHEN WE TALK THINGS OUT IS JUST TO TELL ME SORRY. IM SORRY. WHATS POINT. YOU TELL ME YOU WANT TO MEND THIS FRIENDSHIP. YOU TELL ME SORRY FOR LEAVING ME OUT HERE AND THERE AND YOU WANT TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH ME. THESE ARE NOTHING BUT LIES. WHAT HAPPEN TO THE FRIDAY YOU SAID YOU WANT TO LEAVE JUST TO SPEND TIME WITH ME. WHAT HAPPEN TO THE MUTUAL TRUST YOU OH-SO-CLAIM BETWEEN US. WHATS THE POINT OF CLARIFYING THINGS OR TALKING THEM OUT WHEN HISTORY KEEPS REPEATING ITSELF, AND EACH TIME WE GO INTO COLD WAR THE HURT ACTUALLY GETS WORSE.DONT TELL ME YOU DO NOT KNOW THAT WE ARE DRIFTING. YOU KNOW AND YOU DO NOTHING ABOUT, WHAT DO YOU CALL YOURSELF, A TWELVE FRIEND WHOM SUPPOSINGLY IS MY TRUE FRIEND? WHAT HAPPEN TO THE TIME WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST AND I WAS FEELING OH-SO-DOWN. YOU WERE ACTUALLY NOT THERE FOR ME.SOMETIMES I DO WONDER IF YOU MEANT THE WORDS YOU SAY. SOMETIMES I DO WONDER IF YOU REALLY CARED. SOMEHOW OR RATHER, I FEEL THAT THE ANSWER IS A NO. WHY DO I ALWAYS FIND MYSELF BEING THE ONE TRYING TO GO ALONG WITH YOU IN WHATEVER THING THAT YOU WANT TO DO, BUT IT SEEM AS THOUGH, NEVER ONCE HAVE YOU DID SOMETHING THAT I WANT TO DO.WHY, CAN YOU ANSWER ME, WHY. CALL ME IRRITATING OR WHAT SO EVER. I DONT CARE. ALL I KNOW IS THAT I'M TIRED AND I DONT WISH TO CARE ABOUT THIS FRIENDSHIP ANYMORE. BUT YET I CANT. WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS DO THIS TO ME.WHAT MUST HAPPEN TO LET YOU ACTUALLY TREASURE OUR FRIENDSHIP, AND STOP LETTING HISTORY TO REPEAT ITSELF.

2006-05-11T14:42:00.000+08:00

im bored. someone entertain me please.
somehow. suddenly my life is sooo dull.
i dont laugh to myself while walking home anymore.
all thats on my face is a ):
i wonder whats wrong with me.
just a few moments ago was out.
having fun.
but i didnt laugh.
whatever.

tomorrow, going out with clique.
oh well. and nothing is being discussed til now.
i wonder how would things turn out to be tomorrow.
ahhhh.
i think i should bully ah duck.
bullying ah duck seems to be able to cheer me up.

see you people, love.

2006-05-08T18:24:00.000+08:00

call me too free or what so ever, i hardly have time to play with sammie ever since she came so i was noticing her just now.
to show you how retarded and naughty she is. (:

always hungry mutt.

that cloth was used to clean her urine. and look at her stubborness.
shes off the ground and refuses to let me have it.tsk.

hahahahha retard.

(:

shes practising to join the next modelling competition(:

2006-05-08T14:00:00.000+08:00

i feel that i screwed all my papers.
haha. whatever, i know i did worse than badly.
ahhh.after exams im going to sleep 10 hours a day, make sure that headache doesnt bother me anymore.
i hate it when it start bugging me.
whatever.
anyway. here to show you sammieeeeeeeeee.

that horrible dog dragged that dirty piece of cloth from the hall til outside.

and refused to let go of it.

aye, such a busybody.

heh, i like this. kinda cool.

2006-05-05T13:49:00.000+08:00

im depressed.im depressed.im depressed.
no im not. no im not. no im not.
lalala.
friday, a day to sleep.
hah. finally, half of the maths paper gone, all the humanities subject over. language too.
theres so much to say.
yet im so lazy to type.
aye. what if my fingers grow fat!
HOWWWWWWWWWW.
haha. no wonder uncle calls me crap.

ahhh. hungry.
would someone nice cook for me pleaseeee. (:
uncle still owe me a steak.
cant wait for that steak.
MUAHAHA.

ahh i think im full of nonsense now.
NEXT WEEK IS PHYSICS CHEMISTRY AND BIOLOGY.
AYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
DIE DIE DIE/
hahaha.
what crap am i talking!

shall update later when i talk normally.
see you, LOVE!

2006-04-29T22:26:00.000+08:00

deborah spoke my mind for me.
i share extact sentiments with her.

2006-04-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

i wish i have the freedom to say whatever i want.
however, this is not possible.
i wish i could tell this friend of my my feelings now.
i wish i could tell this friend to look at things now.
but i guess this friend knows.
well, this friend doesnt want to do anything, so why should i.
not that im having a heck care attitude, but i have been putting in too much efforts.
too much hope.
whatever.
much nonsense me and my friend have been up to lately.

i love that colourful background.

DAWN KOH STINK! =D

i know it look kinda wrong, we were playing and she asked me to pole dance.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. thats what shes screaming.

FLIGHT INFORMATION: CHENNAI ; TAKING OFF AT 2100 ; FLIGHT A1 414 =D

2006-04-23T19:13:00.000+08:00

another lovely sunday.
lovely.
irony. my day started off real great, with my friend scolding F-U-C-K at me, right infront of me
how great is today.
i found that my opinion with the majority of the class is like, the total opposite.
that makes me sound like the workers party, but its a one-man show kinda thing.
and i had a headache in the middle of the stupid class.
well, i thought i was fine, just a tiny thing.
til it became really bad.
i felt my knee buckle from the time i stood up to walk towards the second floor toilet, and realised it was packed. and i almost threw up while walking up the escalator to the third floor.
rahh.
the worst was yet to come.
after which my parents brought me to the market to eat.
obviously i didnt had any appetite and i felt really bad til i just lie down on the table, trying to sleep. that was how much i felt like dying.
oh well, when we were about to leave, i finally threw up.
i think i threw up the hydrochloride acid in my stomach,along with the mucus on my stomach bag.
oh wells. i thought i would be fine.
i bought a kaya waffle.
i ate half. and i fell asleep at my tuition teacher house.
it was super embarassing. everyone was staring at me as i woke up.
after that, i threw up that kaya waffle i ate. again.
it was really horrible. the funny thing was, when i was about to get out of the toilet, my friend came knocking on the door. i opened, she asked if i was alright. and she said they thought i fainted.i was even more embarrassed when i walked into the class with everyone staring at me again!

nice sunday, what a nice day i had.
love you people, dont have such a horrid experience that i had today.

2006-04-14T15:56:00.000+08:00

alrights. i know im supposed to be studying.
i love life.(:
this stupid boy is so stupid.
i said, yes i just went towning yesterday.
he said. where is that?
i said, town=orchard.
you know what he replied?

oh very good
u ReAd bEtWeEn ThE LiNes........ says:
picking apples
u ReAd bEtWeEn ThE LiNes........ says:
hehehe haha

HE IS REALLY ONE EXAMPLE OF A BAD NUT!
he's driving me nuts too.
haha.

anyway, TAKE THE LEAD (:
if you like dancing, then you're made to dance.
i'm going to make the world appreciate arts.
singpore,specifically.
yes, just take a look at the bengs and lians
what would happen if you make them attend a arts performance?
the bengs would probably spew nth but vulgars.
and the lians will be littering the floor with hair by combing it continuously
seriously speaking, look at the teenagers nowadays.
how many of them really truly understand and appreciate arts?
dont they realise that it takes more than it is to actually stand up there on the stage, infront of thousands of people, conquering not only nervousness and stage fright, but they have to keep reminding themselves to not make the mistakes they usually do.
it takes hours and days and hard work to probably coordinate the whole group and put up probably 10 minutes of performance.
nope, singaporean dont care at all.
so, i'm going to change the attitudes of people.
like dulaine(:

oh wells, i'm definately going to watch more of those arts show now.
and truly learn to appreciate them (:

well,life has been great.
but dont always take things for granted and rely on "invisible" stuffs.
and i realised that what i've thought of this to be is actually true.
well, quite.
does it hurt me?
i guess it would hurt last time. not anymore.
i've decided not to make that effort anymore.
because i dont want to be the one and only one clearing up the mess.
and this mess, is a really big untidy one.
because it has accumulated over years,over time.
sad to say, i really have decided to wash my hands off this.
whats the point, of trying so hard.
i dont want to feel so hurt anymore.
so, i've turned to someone i can really trust all the time.
this friend would never ever fail me, i know.

infact, even if we clear this up.
i wont be able to trust you like how i did before.
and yes, i'm not referring to anyone, pointing at anyone.
if you want to assume its you, let it be.
you can try asking me, who is is, if you want.
if you know me, you should very well know what would my reply be.

i'm sorry people, i know i rant quite alot.
shrugs.
see you, love.

2006-04-12T19:12:00.000+08:00

hello(:
i've just finished writing geek in the pink lyrics
hand is tired.
heh. played prank on this boy blading today
i went like. BOO!
hah. he was like, hey! begineer only!
haha. if only he fell.
ok i shall not be mean.
i want to play ball.
and sad to say i can only do that next monday.
this week isnt very relax either.
aye aye aye.

me and ninny quay talked alot today.
heh. love the name i created for her?
ninny quay.
alrights, however it is supposed to be spelt.
we practically talked while going round and round the carpark.
heh.
mother nature is so lovable (:
you know what? i forgot what i wanted to blog =/
i shallnt waste my brain cells trying to recall.
see you, LOVE!

2006-04-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

hello people (:
my ambition changed again.
i dont want to be forensic scientist, in whatever ways you are supposed to spell it.
i dont want to care about how that corpse infront of me dead, neither do i want to cut their bodies and dig out their organs.
instead, i found myself loving mother nature.
and you know what? i thought of being someone who take care of the trees/environment etc.
like,work in the zoo/vet/nature reserve.
but i think i would want to be a photographer instead.
yes, i'm going to capture the beautiful mother nature in my camera.
yes, i'm just going to do so.
i'm going to let the world appreciate this perfect world God has created.
and those cute moving creatures like ELEPHANT.
hah, clumsy elephants.
and i'm going to take those pitful children/eldery suffering.
this is to let the world see those people in need
and to actually let them realise how fortunate they are, and i want those photos to actually move the people's heart and let the people reach out to those in need.

well, im not sure if my ambition will change again, but meanwhile.
yes, i'm just going to do that (:
i love my running timing.
hee. sorry if i overexaggerate.

i find myself sliding towards that pit
i was crawling out. was.
slowly, bit by bit.
but now i find myself slipping..
closer and closer again.
geena, you've gotta be strong.

random, random, random.
love you people, God bless.

2006-03-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

hellos (:
how's life?
i hope its GREAT!
haha. enjoy life while you're still living man!
well, im serious yea.
everyone is learning everyday.
im learning more about friendship.
yep, such a great gift from God, but yet. it can be one of the most piercing thing that pierces your heart.
im sure all of you know what i'm talking about.
this entry would be rather thought-provoking. erh, if thats the phrase for it.but, yes.

well, i'm glad i had such a great talk with my friend today.
this friend of my is just so special.
indeed, i could never have such a great true friend.

think about it, which of your friends would you classify as your true friends?
which of them you know for sure would be there for you anytime anywhere, not being too dependent on them, but actually when you're feeling oh-so-down, that friend of yours would stop whatever she/he is doing, lend a listening ear and comfort,sympathize you?
which of them would cry with you when you're crying, and laugh with you as you're laughing?
would your friend actually understand what you are going through, understand you and actually go through pain with you, stand up for you or always try to keep you on the right track when he/she knows you're going to be lead astray.
would your friend be the one that you would still keep contact with even when you graduate from this school? are you 100% sure that these "i will miss you", "friends forever", "we will keep in contact" will come true.even if you know that you will definitely try to keep in contact with your friend, would your friend make an effort after she/he is different school from you, surrounded with a new group of friends?

define true friendship.
there is no 100% correct definition for it, is there?
well, since you have classified your friends with your true friends.
think of what that true friend(s) have done for you all these while, thoughout these years.
how this friend of yours have stood up for you countless of times, how this friend of yours have done so much just to cheer you up. how this friend have sacrifice so much for you for anything, how much this friend laugh with you and how much this friend cry with you as you're crying. silly as it may seems, but truly, think about it. it touches your heart, doesnt it.
well, it touches my heart.

this friend of my certainly is my true friend.
this friend of my has done so so so much for me that i dont know how to repay.
this friend of my have been there for me, from the start til now. everytime i'm so helpless and weak, this friend of my never fail to stand beside me and urge me to pick myself up and to move on with life.
this friend has done so much for me, sacrifice for me.
this friend of my, i hope i have done the same for you.
i hope that i've sacrifice for you, and that you would actually think of me as your true friend.
my dearest friend, thank you so much. i love you.

2006-03-29T16:55:00.000+08:00

alrights. long time since i blogged.
i know i have to make this worth reading cause you all said you love me!
well, today was quite unhappy lah
im sorry for flaring up quite abit occasionally.
pms you see.
school is great.
yea, like real man. hahahaha.
english wordpower test suck, do did chinese.
but yes, freedom. muahaha

geek in the pink, my fav now.
haha.
i've decided to grow long hair, im not sure how it will turn out though.
but what i know is that if i want long hair it would take a long long time to grow.

"innocence ages as human ages."
think about it.
random i know, but. shrugs.
i want to town!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
alright, more like have loads of fun.
would someone date me out.
gees.
i come to realise that some people actually dont understand me at all.

im going to start recording what i've ate in a day
and you know what, i ate three tomatoes ystd. =D
not the small box one, but yes the real one.
they were delicious.

you know what?
i truly believe God will make a way.
well, like. He has proven to me and everything yea.
yes indeed.
i wish i could sort of share, but its kinda personal problem kinda thing yea.
but yes people.
no matter what happens, a simple prayer would do.
the difference is great (:

shall blog later. see you people, LOVE!

2006-03-18T23:27:00.000+08:00

say you love me!
haha. ok i know all of you did before you could enter my blog.
hah.
gb was great.
actually. not really lah.
kinda left out and everything.
but playing with felicia and esther was REALLY FUN.
i was really super tired and i'm like. in switch off mood.
and they really made me laugh til i couldnt laugh anymore.
zzzzzzz.
tired.
and i dont want to go tuition ALONE AGAIN!
i really dont want lah. see those lians again.
alright, not only that. but i dont want to sit there by myself and do work.
i have tendacy of switching off at tuition lessons! you know that!
so when a piece of work is given to me!
lalala. im know nth about it.

actually, i really dont see a point of you competing so darn hard for results.
come on. you should know that studies aint everything.
let me repeat, it is not = to everything.
whats the point of pushing yourself so darn hard to achieve the results that.. is that what you really want?
stop this too much of a competing thing.
really.

lalala.
gloves are gross things.
hah.
i'm such a muddle-head.
and i wasted about 8 bucks on cab fare all thanks to my bad memory brain.
see you people.
LOVE!

2006-03-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

life is great i tell you.
love is everywhere.
but unfortunately some things kinda make me think of the past and everything.
not say think, but actually miss the presence.
alright. that was random.
and friendster and hotmail kinda irritate me alot.
growls.

tanwenqi is smart. she suggest to go PASIR RIS to study.
my goodness.
staring into the com for 3 hours is making me feel sick
not to mention the stupid email still ccant be sent.
sorry to those people whom im talking to but didnt reply when i was busy, like dawn cherryl junwei and jasmine.
it has been quite a busy week still.
so will be the next.
i want a dog. ):
my wounds are healing! yay!
PLEASE HELP ME PRAY THAT THAT WOULDNT BE SCAR! ):
i really dont want any scars ok.
i would probably cry til i die.
thats rubbish, i know.
see you people. LOVE!

2006-03-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

HELLO! =D
today has been a real great day.
had loads and loads of fun, being high and everyone told me to take my medicine, asked people to control me and etc.
MS FELICA CHUA IS AFRAID OF ME! MUAHAHA.
hehehe.
ms ester lim says i need counselling.
i love everyone in recreation.
retreats always bond me closer to those people.
i finally understood the pain and trouble to actually have only TWO people to teach and prepare the game, while it took us about 6 people, split up and everything.
recreation is such a great committee.
i think im gonna cry when its R.O.D.
kinda sad, isnt it.
but i will come back to serve.
and i want to plan games too!
i just love today loads.

gees. i think i wouldnt dare to go queenstown by myself anymore, after getting lost at ULU pandan.
shucks, its must have been what dawn has planned for me to be lost.
she must haven knew that i would got lost and left me to DIE there.
ok i dont know what rubbish im uttering, probably cause im tired.
found another great friend today.kinda nice yea.
falling asleep.
see you people.
LOVE YOU! =D

2006-03-09T16:37:00.000+08:00

hello people.=D
its has been a long time hasnt it?
well, life is great.
and i believe that i'm moving on quite well, but yea.
God is my strength!
His works are always wonderful, isnt it?
yep.
well, recalling back
adam khoo was great.
learnt much, had great fun and everything.
cross country.
i fell down again.
i wonder why am i so clumsy.
gee.
i trip over my shoe,fell flat and skidded across the carpark.
._.
infront of many people too.
it did hurt alot though.
having difficulty standing and sitting even.

aaahhhhhhhhhhhh.
i forgot what i wanted to blog, darn.
ohh.
yea, i have been going out with dawn and amelia.
actually, not always la
dont know what m i talking about thanks to TAN WEN QI.
stupid aint she.
i know she is. X)
i miss doing things for people that makes them smile.
rahh.

2006-02-20T20:13:00.000+08:00

amazing how much weird dreams i can ever have.
when i dont even, remember about them in the day?
hah. and, yes im smiling to myself because of this sweet thing someone has done for me.
thanks again,(: well, that person certainly cheered me up and encouraged me with those words,
and when i was smiling to myself at the thought of it while singing the anthem.

lessons are as usual.
how boring.
someone please deprive me of sleep, and psycho me in thinking school is interesting and fun.
._.
i offered many a hug today, but they rejected.
well, obviously it was because i stink.
HAH.
that that that.. pe teacher. remind me of humpty dumpty and sound like a duck =x
well, he kinda insulted me by calling me TINA.
like, dig your ears lah! im called GEENA, not TINA.
it was rather retarded running around with a hockey stick.
and there goes tan ah siao laughing at the TINA thing.
peraira is nice to bully though X)
it kinda reminded me of the times we had playing ever since secondary one.
dont ever insult her, or she will call you BLOODY HELL.
so typical.
tsk.
see you people (:

2006-02-18T19:20:00.000+08:00

lalalala (:
i was hyper.
til i was left all alone again. ):
and feelings came back again.
rahh.
i badly want to know hows your life and everything,
and to tell you that your shoes are super striking from far.
i know thats dumb but. well. thats me isnt it.
and what dawn have been encouraging me is really great cause when im down, it never fail to pop up in my head.
"but you know what? i know you can do it"
yea, thats great isnt?

and that STUPID dawn.
that day i almost kissed francis lah, cause of that dumb corner of the wall
and she said "how i wish you could kiss him"
)(@&Q$(*&!@*(!
and my brother!
he punch me in the back and it hurt til now lah.
shld have bitten him.

and i realised that theres sooo many desperate guys out there.
if only i could mention names.
HAHA.
and if only i could tell them, stop being so desperate lah!
hahaha okok.

gee, i haf so much to blog that i forgot. haha.
school is................
ai, shallnt comment.
darn, o level is just so close.
and my subjs are all dying. eek.
and i cant believe im so unaware of my surroundings.
my goodness, it must have been dawn's influence of being so blur.

well, gb was great today.
though when i was thrown with 5 questions all of the sudden i felt that i have no answer to them at all. but on the bus, memories flooded my mind.
and i realised that gb has actually changed me life so so much.
(:

well, i learnt many things too.
and i've learnt to actually..
yes, stop deceving myself that some are really true.
they're only there for show, i would say

ai, really having too much to blog til i forget.
see you people (:
loves!

2006-02-08T21:21:00.000+08:00

i was supposed to blog happily.
well, as i've said, was supposed to.
but suddenly the fact that there's so many issues going on and i find it really hard to believe hit me again.
rahh.

it had been two months plus even since you were gone.
and i'm only feeling oh-so-upset now.
my eyes hurt so much.
i really dont know why, but yea, i tot i got infection like that dawn koh.
can you see through me?
no, i dont think you can.
neither can i see through you anymore.
'people change.'
im glad you realised.

darn, i cant think anymore.

2006-01-31T22:43:00.000+08:00

chinese new year was great.
yep, and i love all my clothes.
and of course, i love all those whom i went visiting.
like my stupid cousin.
but, sad to say. i got a feeling we only got the time to go out after 'o's
rahhh.

i dont know.

you, stop thinking everyone likes you.
thats really gross, if you realised ok?

my dearest pet tortoise on vacation.
get well soon ok.
i will really miss you for the next two weeks.

i dont know.

lets see how long this 'trust' can last uh.
i wonder.

fri is prefects installation.
im usher again!

i miss my dear camera.
darn.

im at random.
i dont know.

2006-01-29T00:01:00.000+08:00

great.
it is new year.
and i just dont care a single bit.
i dont even bother sending messages.
i guess it is because of you who screw up every thought i have in my mind.
im currently in a i-pissed,dont-irritate-me mood.
whats wrong with me, i dont know
ROARS

it has been fun for the past few days.
dawn.
shes an idiot.
ok, lets be more kind.
cant find a word for her.
but yea, loves.
i still cant believe what we used to do in secondary one in school
and the times where we go out.
trust me, we really do wreak havoc when we are hyper high.
cherryl minjia joyce.
amazed at mingjia.
really do
hah. they dont wana acknowledge me as a friend.
so be it.
but obviously
i pull them.

shall blog when in a better mood.

wenn!

2006-01-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

DISCLAIMER: if you're so not happy with the following post, dig out your eyeballs. this is a prewarning.

i dont care if you dont care what i've said.
thats my opinion.
if i feel more comfortable with others, then let me go and let me have my own choice and freedom.

hellos im blogging for geena darling.
i shall blog in a different colour, but no i wont mince my words.

okay geena has been having issues ongoing.
she decides to address them here.
i mean, this is her blog. with FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

its wonderful really.
how people claim to love love love God.
and there they go, spilling all the eff words out.
eff = f. geddit?
and so, if you think im talking about you.
thats too bad, i dont care.
and you people go with all the shortforms.
eg . WTF, FYOU, OMFG and blah blah. the list goes on.
dont tell me you use freaky/freako/fuk instead of the eff word.
-rolls eyes.
IF YOU DECIDED TO USE IT IN ANY CASE OF SUBSTITUTING IT, YOU STILL HAD THE BLOODY INTENTION OF THE ORIGINAL WORD PLS.
i dont care if you agree or not. its a fact. (:
and worse of all, they go round scolding people who use different meanings like what the heck, what the ..?
HELLO PLS. H and F are two different characters.
i hate to say this. but as an example. eff you and heck you.
SO TELL ME DO THEY CONVEY THE SAME MEANING? HECK YOU DOESNT EVEN SOUND RIGHT.
if you so dared to say it out of your mouth, cant you just be brave and admit me.
so much for remission of sins.

and pls dont go around saying you love God and the next minute, OMFG. like go eat POO pls.

also also.!
this is a freeee world pls.
i certainly also dont agree that some places are the right place for spirtual learning.
dumm deee dumm.
even the simplest of receiving the Holy Spirit cannot be fufilled in certain places, how to learn and grow?
tsk.
high-class eh? all surround sound systems and big big place nicenice aircon eh.
SO WHAT.

its just too bad if you dont agree with me. twinnie's blog=my blog. our freedom of speech. moreover, eh man its a LOCKED BLOG? well, you made the choice to enter and read this. nobody forced you. (:

and some people should jolly well stop grossing me out. fat ugly pimplieeeeeee. do you know its you ? pls do have some self-consiousness even though i know you're like super uber thicko skinned.

some ppl, should learn how to be punctual. and stop giving excuses. God's tired of your excuses. so am i. -rolls eyes.

yes yes, i've alot of opinions. certainly, if you're not happy bout it, contact me. reddevil_db07@hotmail.com i'l be waiting.

shall now end off with a verse to ponder on. it applies to certain people who dont realise their devotion is plain superficial.

WHOEVER GOES TO CHURCH COS YOUR FRIENDS GO, ARE PLAIN LOSERS. YOU GO FOR GOD. not your friends.

and stop listening to the same old song over and over lah pls. BORING.
conquering one mountain, doesnt mean it'll apply to the rest of the mountains.

Acts2:38-39 "Then Peter said unto them,Repent,and be baptised everyone of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. For the promise is unto you, and to your children, and to all that are afar off,even as many as the Lord our God shall call."

yours truly,
JERRICK.

2006-01-22T10:10:00.000+08:00

party was fun.
it was supposingly siao leng keng over there.
but.hmm. some parts was rather. dull i would say. i guess its because the juniors arent that enthu lah. after all they are shy.
but it was really fun. espically all the games right! cause i was the gamemaster for most of the games! HAHA. guess how much they were been tortured.
ok obviously they were been tortured lah.
but the marco and polo game, if it is spelt correctly was really something that we laughed til we could no longer laugh.
the "permanent" marco were lily and hongchow.
haha! they were darn funny lah.
esp when they got violated =x
the water game was super.
and once again, im the gamemaster.
so guess how wet they got.
of course, i got wet too.
and i realised, lemon was rather nice to eat after all. haha.
poor thing to those who had to slurp tofu, drink milo with raw egg, eat celery, and many others lah.
photos are with yongen. so shall wait til she send me then i upload all of them!

please dont push me away in your excitment about the game or about what you are talking about. how would you feel if i push you away just because im talking to someone else.
you'll probably think:how rude this person can be.
you're just like him.

having lots of random thoughts.
betrayer got betrayed.
HAHA.
what the heck am i talking about.
love you,dawn. love those time we used to had in class.

2006-01-20T15:03:00.001+08:00

alright, both me and cherryl were suppose to blog something like tt ystd,. but forgot
i hope woei chian's chair break today.
and, i hope woei chain falls down today.<-this is cherryl's line.

shit, my stomach just told me that i have to go shit.
so will make it short.
today was rather bad.
everyone was like. woah. war ar.
well, thats for my class.
john and pavan were scolding each other loudly in class, mrs loh just stood there and do nth.
after that.
many more.
oh wells. shrugs. "maybe everyone is p.m.s-ing today."said cherryl
haha. i love what we have in plan for our class!
i hope they love us for what we've done too!
haven been bullying jasmine for long. HAHA.
crap, i realised that my clique is falling apart.
why? maybe it was alrdy in pieces long ago.
oh wells. i miss jj! and that crappy zhenglaoshi.
gtg shit now. see you.

and cherryl. HAHA. continue getting influence by the songs that im singing X)

2006-01-18T22:54:00.000+08:00

"hello.bring my songbook tml and return me before singspiration"
"orh ok i try to remember"
"oh DONT try to remember and RETURN ME BEFORE SINGSPIRATION TML MORNING. bye."
and i hung up
im sorry to have loved you.

"hello. and bring my badge tml."
"huh. orh ok"
"bye."

whatever yea.
you realised i dont want to have anything to do with you
well. not anymore

"dont you find it so tiring? just let go and move on lah"
"dont teach me to do something which you cant even do it yourself. i know it. i know that you cant even do it so dont tell me to do so"

blah blah blah.
sorry, but i hope today pierced straight into your heart.
oh, even more sorry
you forgot what happened didnt you?
-shrugs.
get out of my life.
my heart's hardened towards you and your LAZINESS.

"please, he is not very good. he showed his ass to me. how nice can that be"

all " are quoted from different people.
GOODBYE, JERK

2006-01-17T18:07:00.000+08:00

this was super long ago thing.

and so is this.

pearlyn loves me, cherryl was jealous.
haha

well. cherryl and i went town. it was RAINING.=.=
and yes, the hilarious part is that we had been RUNNING in the rain
ah ha!
can you imagine, GEENA NEO running in the rain
gosh. i told myself i would never ever do that in my whole life. but apparently i did it today ._.
hahaha. i cant believe it. but we were like two idiots running, and laughin.
haha. we couldnt believe that we were running under the rain.
retards
and there was this part, i ran, i COLLIDED into this man.
he pushed me, i stepped back. and you know what?
cherryl pushed me infront
HILARIOUS.
haha. it was like. front back front.
yea. and that sponge, she was like.
eh we're wet lets take photos!
(raises one eyebrow)
there you go.

i still think this picture is soo funny and cute!

2006-01-17T18:02:00.000+08:00

2 A.M. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're tellin me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say -- try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough -- if we learn to trust

(chorus)

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our last good-bye

(chorus)

there are words that mean alot to me, to remind me.
but i rather not highlight them or what so ever.
today was hilarious.
shall blog it later.

with nothing, nothing but the question why

2006-01-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

so what if i miss you, so what if i miss the times we had.
so what.
so what if i want it back, so what if i want/need you.
face it, geena.
time's up.
stop regretting,
it will never be the same again.

you'll just be another friend that i've lost.
ilovedyou.

2006-01-16T20:57:00.000+08:00

rahh.
the truth hurts.

twinnie, now i truly understand.
if the sincerity is gone.
theres no point forcing.
whats the point?
it is like forcing a dog to pee when it doesnt want to, eat when its full.
what will happen in the end?
it will turn back and bite you.
i dont know what connection. but they are just my random thoughts.
stop doing what i did to you back to me.itwouldonlycausemorehurtandworseconsquences.

"draw the line, end the story"
quoted from somebody.
GOODBYE, my love.

sponge, dont be upset.
patrick also very upset.
i dont want to study ss and geog.
my concentration is getting worse.
thats really bad, geena
my brain is being fried.
senses arent working properly.

2006-01-14T12:26:00.000+08:00

stop giving me this superficial crap, thankyou.
i really dont need it.
get away from me satan.

where are you people when i miss you all so badly,
i miss the times we were really so bonded like one.
dont you miss the times you had in your primary school too?

2006-01-14T10:55:00.000+08:00

i better stop complaining.
if not, i will become like joeline auntie.
everyday got something to complain.
haha kidding.

im trying.

anyway, for ppl who wana tag this board.
click on the message box first.
den click on the name.
den you can type your name, and write your message and tag alrdy (:
will rmb to change my tagboard after headstart(:
cant remember what else i gtg say.
sponge, cheer up. patrick is just next door ok.
loves.

soak it.UP*

2006-01-13T22:31:00.000+08:00

soak it.UP*

thanks jiawen for telling me again.
im tired.
anyway.
what jiawen said is left in my mind.
hmm, how to say.
yea. like. i wont forget it and somehow it probably made an impact there.
ahh i dont know what shit im talking cause my brain is only half functioning.
but. yea.will think about it when i have a clear mind.
and start doing something bout my defination of friendship, and start doing something to my attitude.
thanks again jiawen.
(:

2006-01-13T15:02:00.000+08:00

i conclude my organs are failing me. =/
sohjinying said he said hello to me, shouted my name infront of me when i was boarding the bus.
but i couldnt rmb anything bout anyone calling me.
that day i saw hazel and xinhui laughing at wong cc at their seats ( middle of classroom)
den hazel tells me she sits in the centre row of her class, n she says xinhui sits near the door
are my organs failing me?
there must be something wrong with me.

school was as usual.
blehh.
sponge and pat cant laugh/ go hyper like the 1st-2nd day of school.
boo. i wonder why
and her specs broke.
haha =x

i cant believe i "bullyed" this lower sec guy during recess today =x
he cut queue from the right, where the metal bar is.
then he ordered his food.
and i said. oi! dont cut queue!go and queue up at the back! then i pointed to the back
he looked at me. den he ran one round to the front and took his food.
then i said. cut queue later choke on your food ah!
i didnt know that i was being mean =x til cherryl was like. eh why you so mean one.
then i was like. oh ya. very mean hor. den i told him. okok kidding dont choke on your food ok.

i forgot that leopard would never change his spots.
shrugs.
maybe,maybe not.

2006-01-12T16:42:00.000+08:00

i dont know why im in such a irritated mood. but just let me rant ok.
if you dont wish to get affected then dont read.

i dont understand why do people LAUGH when you're really upset. and feel as though its like the lowest moment of your life and just hope that people would lend a listening ear.
many of them just LAUGH.
the worse of all, some of them dont even give a damn that you msged/msn/tell them you're unhappy and stuff.
or maybe they are both equal.
i'm really. shocked? disappointed?angry.
i would say im pissed now.
and people who dont do anything for this friendship.
forget about it ok?
i dont wish to get disappointed realising that all these while, my efforts of trying to maintain this friendship has gone down the drain.
dont ask me who is this person, i wont say.
but this is one GREAT example.
im orange, the other party in red.

it's lost. says:
rahh
it's lost. says:
):
When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says:
lol
it's lost. says:
stpo laughin at unnecessary things, thank you
When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says:
...
it's lost. says:
im serious
it's lost. says:
you never asked why when i always showed an unhappy face or was upset.
it's lost. says:
all you did was laugh laugh laugh and lol.
When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says:
....
When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says:
sry al..
When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says:
busy...
When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says:
gotta reply fast lo..
it's lost. says:
stop dot-ing me thank you.
When Jesus is all we Have, we will realize he's all we Need says:
dotz
it's lost. says:
even when you were free you never bother to ask.
it's lost. says:
and you never bothered to try to save this friendship when it was on the verge of getting lost and can never be found again.

its true. i realised that i have been the one always calling calling and finding time to spend time with these people. its like. hey. if you dont bother trying, tell me ok? i would like to give up too. or maybe i wont try in the first case.

2006-01-12T16:13:00.000+08:00

dont know what to say, dont know what to blog.
three down, five more to go.
darn chemistry and freaking humanities
plus irritating maths.
i dont know whats wrong with me and all the cursing =/
ok i take them all back.
grrr.
im really suffering from stm.
im sorry ppl whom i always call and say oh no i forgot what i wanted to tell you and its real important. the impt stuffs always got forgotten in the end anyway.

time to face the truth, stop thinking that things would change.
it wont.
nothing will.
will you ever realise how i feel?
time to put all these into actions.
and stop deceiving yourself, geena.
so long.

2006-01-10T14:05:00.000+08:00

dont try understanding, you wont know how to

i dont what to say about you.
i do feel rather upset cause youre unhappy.
but what can i do.
i dont even know where i stand.
as friend. anot.
i think you can survive relatively well without me.
i dont know you.
you were never easy to understand.
when you so things.
i would think that you have a motive.
its either you, or me.
you were the one who spolit what was fine.
but yet maybe you were the one who brought us closer.
did you?
whatever.
stop acting so fake.
that isnt the way.
i think this is sooo superficial.
i dont know what to say about you.

enoughbout rubbish.
im hungry again.
but i just finished lunch less than 5 mins ago.
this is bad.
anyway,
you really reply my msg superrrrrr fasttt until i think the next reply would either take 3 hours to come if not it wont even come.
i found "the other part of me"
hahaha.
i know what to do when i want to talk to myself.

oh wells. gtg STUDY now.
blehh. ):
see you.

2006-01-09T16:23:00.000+08:00

): the day haven been good for me.
school was borrringgg.
i found tt i had been sitting there in class for the whole day, staring at the board, stoning.
all the things that my teachers said went in and out straight away.
i dont know wads wrong with me

i went crazy with cherryl for bout 2-3 times today.
maybe more than that.
i tried hugging a wall.
but i failed.
school is really boring lah ok.
thinking of all the tests alrdy like. make me.
arghh.

i dont know why im feeling like this.
everytime im in school im happy.
once im alone thoughts flood in just like that.
whatever;
i shallnt do anything anymore.
its killing me.
at least i've done my part all these while.

study hard, geena.
other people who have headstart, please study hard too.
loves

2006-01-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

i would say.
sigh. i wont say it. forget it.
whats the problem with me!
i keep having negative thoughts about everything i see can):
i cant carry on like that!
its like. so meann!
gee.

im used to it anyways.
you never seem to prove what i think of you wrong.
oh wells.
i failed doing my part as a friend too.
have i?
whatever

ahhh! see my neagtive thoughts again):
CHERRYLUM! STOP BULLYING ME LAH!

2006-01-08T19:41:00.000+08:00

someone help me d/l leaving on a jet plane, superwoman.
and all atomic kitten songs. thanks! love.

2006-01-08T19:36:00.000+08:00

SCREAMSSSSS.
my mind is sooo not with me ):
i need to concentrate and study for my headstart.
but obviously i cant.
my mind is here. and there.
):
i keep thinking and thinking.
i dont know why are you in my head.
you arent suppose to be here.
GO AWAY.

somebody pleasee slap me awake.
i cant afford to take the wrong path again.

2006-01-05T14:56:00.000+08:00

I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the queston why
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

Chorus:
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

the person i was lying to, was me.
all the while i thought i was fine.
well. the answer is obvious now isnt it.

im sorry cherryl. you knew there was something wrong with me.
i was trying hard to convince myself there was nothing wrong, and really didnt want to talk about it.
but, wad was the problem in the first case?

confusion;
i have chosen to walk this path.
and i will be strong.
i shall not regret again.

i dont understand. why.
why do i always get it when it was too late.
why do i always feel only after it has passed for a long time.

and on the other hand, im still thinking.
i dont know why.
but everything came running back to me
you are important.
but now i ask myself.
are you worth this importance in my life.
i guess its you partially that made me feel like that today
i dont know.
i really dont.
maybe it teaches me a lesson.
so what if i knew it.
whats the big deal
i would say.
theres still many questions in my head that i would like to ask.
but it would probably screw this whole thing.

maybe you would find someone else better.
im sorry to have made you do such a hard work of trying to make me happy.
i hope you have learnt.
its not talking about the same person btw.

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

2005-12-28T15:14:00.000+08:00

i found my love (:
my crazy for man united faded.
til i made up my mind to really learn about them (:
yes, i love man united.
glory glory man united!

2005-12-26T17:15:00.000+08:00

(:
my brother is back.
i love him. i really do.
he bought me 3 bags, when i asked for a bag.
he bought me 2 pairs of converse shoes.
and many lv wallets for me and my parents
yes, hes crazy.
he bought himself 6 pairs of shoes.
no, dun faint. yes, its S-I-X pair of shoes.
i feel so blessed.
well. not only because of what he gave me (:

2005-12-26T11:57:00.000+08:00

the answer; is no.
everything is over isnt
you arent worth my trust.
well. you said so didnt you.
you yourself admitted that i arent a friend that matter.
thanks alot, FRIEND.

sorry twinnie to use this, but
-------,-----
thanks for letting me realise before i trust you any futher.
sorry, no cure.

2005-12-25T11:59:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i ask myself if i'm really one of your friends who have that impact in your life.
alright, not impact. but at least a friend who matters.
it really do makes me wonder.
~~im not talking bout you twinnie.~~
and would you tag my board.
why do i always go and tag you all board and noone tag on my board.):
its like. den i must well dun blog or put up a tagboard right.
oh wells.

2005-12-22T21:07:00.000+08:00

oh wells.
i shall learn to keep personal thoughts to myself (:
even though im like.
(Q!&#!*^#!^^!^@&!
but yes, after all im still your friend.
i guess its just like.
hey you alright?
ARGGGGHHHHH.
&#)#&!*(#^*(!^

ok sorry blogger.
oh wells.
GUESS WHAT!
i never return that two darn books and the library sent the darn letter to my house n my dad went (&#*^@*!^@!&*
oops =x
and i forgot to return it today again.
yes, thanks for congrat-ing me for my forgetfullness
i haf been so crazy about maple these two days.
):
im sorry studies, i neglected you once again.
but oh well. who wana study when they can get to play!
hahas.
ok i think im fulll of junk and nonsenses
thats patrick isnt it
I WANT A SLING BAG.
hope brother would buy me NICE NICE one
if not, i will probably faint and die knowing how strange hes taste cna be sometimes.
alright.
SEEYOU!
and yOU!
nope, not talking bout you in my post lah (:
its just ME always having the darn moodswing.
gotta change that

2005-12-21T20:49:00.000+08:00

oh wells. i guess for these few days wad my brain is thinking is probably.
oh well -roll eyes wadever those kinda thing you know.
ya.
somehow unfortunately(did i just spelt that word wrongly?) it happen that im like rolling my eyes at you.
yes, you.
what you do and what you say.
i guess its not like physically but mentally.
i duno lah.
WHATEVER.
sometimes i still doubt your action.
AI YA WHATEVER LAH.
i guess its me having bad mood these few days lah.
frowning away like nobody's buisness.

~~well.~~
~~if you really feel sad about something like maybe your best-est friend or what so ever.~~
~~lets say something happen. you wouldnt say rite?~~
~~who would say?~~
~~i guess people who wants attention and like.~~
~~eh you ok cheer up ok blah.~~
~~oh wells just a personal thought.~~
WHATEVER.

2005-12-20T12:15:00.000+08:00

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
You shouldn't ever came around

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see

why are you still so blind to not see
WHY.):
i'm tired.
someone, save me.

2005-12-20T11:39:00.000+08:00

why;
do everything that i never wanted them to come true came true all of the suddenly, all at one go.
im so sick and tired of things around me.
i dont know why.
would you all just leave me alone.
ARRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2005-12-18T18:35:00.000+08:00

nah; i haven del that post.
its saved as draft
oh wells.
blog ltr. X) see you!

2005-12-18T01:18:00.000+08:00

im upset. really really disappointed.
im sorry to have chose that instead of you.
and now i've lost you.

this is probably the retribution.

i'm sorry friend.goodbye;

2005-12-17T00:04:00.000+08:00

gee.
i went to the dental today.
it was freaking expensive! ):
oh well.
but the funny thing was this was wasd wen told me online.

- says:
you go to her "you know you screwed my gum yesterday and i was about the take you to court. but i decided i dont want to ruin your future, so i wont take you t court, and as a apology you can cancel off my 30bucks debt"
why; am i always doing things at the wrong time. says:
wah lau!
- says:
den say "i know im being nice dont need to thank me, goodbye"
- says:
den walk out.
why; am i always doing things at the wrong time. says:
i tink they will stare at me like im some crazy idiot can!

HILARIOUS can.
hahas.
it was because the assistant went to push the stupid sucker (the one to suck out all you sailva.) into my soft gummy at my tongue der.
really really hurt.

oh wells. update ltr.
see you X)

2005-12-13T19:00:00.000+08:00

yea!
im back from malaysia.
okok.
actually tot tt the trip would be boring.
but turn out fine.
heh.
see those tiny things? BIRDS standing on the cables.
i tin k they are cute.

my aunt n my grandmummy

somehow ders a monkey in the ostrich farm.but i tink hes very cute!

of course ders self obession. =x

ok. someghow i cant post any more photos. or rather; they dun appear =/

2005-12-10T20:47:00.000+08:00

alright
inoe its time to update.
tok bout my bday presents ok
i noe its kinda late.
but.
heh.
i got this pretty zen neeon from someone!
pretty rite? i noe.
dun steal ok!=x

pretty((:?
im super tired la. so cant say much
currently haf two dumb =x jobs now.
ok la not bad la.
dozing off alrdy.
tml going malaysia
gee
hope to see my pretty bodyglove bag. ((:

2005-11-29T19:10:00.000+08:00

alright.
im back from camp everyone.

honestly speaking.
i feel totally horrible.((:
totally.
til the extend of breaking down n crying.
i failed horribly as a leader in the camp.
my asst leader complain to other group members tt this camp is boring.
how bout tt.
very nice of her rite (:
not forgetting.
was very out of place.
in my own group.
my senoir saw me.
forced out a smile, den walked away.
how much do she like me i wonder.
muz be alot tt she had to force out a smile.
i utterly disappointed ((:
the games may be fun but.
i hardly enjoyed myself i guess.

wow.
this is the "greatest birthday present" i haf you noe.
((: not bad huh.

2005-11-21T23:14:00.000+08:00

DID I TELL ANYONE IM DARN DARN DARN ANGRY
YES I M.
IF SOMEONE TT YOU DO NOT REALLY LIKE LIKE THE SAME THIN AS YOU YOU FEEL INSULTED ENOUGH RITE
THIS PERSON COPY ME LIKE BARNEY OK.
IM REALLY REALLY ANGRY
SOMEMORE SHE LAST TIME SAID BARNEY THIS TYPE OF SHOW VERY CHILDISH SHE DUN LIKE.
DEN NOW BECAUSE DEBORAH N ME LIKE BARNEY SHE ALSO WANA COPY US LIKE BARNEY.
LIKE WAD THE HECK IS WRONG WIF YOU.
BARNEY IS SOMEONE TT I HAF BEEN LIKING EVER SINCE YOUNG LA.
SUCH AN INSULT!
@#($&@$(&(!

2005-11-20T10:48:00.000+08:00

oops.
heh. sorry i duno why the photos cant be seen but..
i'll try to get them back la huh.
gah.
im really bored lo.

but anyway!
ltr would b going out wif mummy papa.
going parkway(where ms lam always go.)
hope i wont see ms lam =x.
heh.
i wana buy a waterbottle!
n..
nail filer la.
n...
MY RACERBACK.
omgoodness
U2 racer got so many diff colours la.
i wan them all!
ok im juz kiddin.
heh.
oh yea!
thanks joeline deborah n cheryl tan (:
they got me a bottle of stars.
n a set of jewellery!
yay. thank you!
n xinyi hu got me a... file top.
((:
thanks ppl!

2005-11-17T20:12:00.000+08:00

ok. these haf been wad's going on wif my life these few days. juz bored so i'll juz put up the photos i've taken.
after all; a picture=1000words mah rite ((:

mr tay! gosh. so sad la. this crappy cher is leaving us.

we went ben n jerry!
ice cream anyone?

i like this momo toilet.

she was tryin to EAT me up.hah. evil thing.

n we took the last shot before going home!

aahh! i almost forgot to BLACKMAIL her. muahaha.

my cute bung.

i noe i prettier den her. =x. HAH. KIDDING.

this photo isnt tt nice.

n the next day!

clique!

believe it if i told you we were all crazy?

guess which clumsy fool spilt drinks?

i tink this fly is cute!

dun love him ok! i will come n box you.

he's trying to seduce me. but. nah

thus he cried.

but i love him though.

i went out wif eunice ystd!
but she refused to smile

she gave me a dumb dumb smile.nah kidding.

i like this belt!

i love this photo!

this too!

tada. ok time to go watch the show.

2005-11-13T13:19:00.000+08:00

you hate me so much.
i try to make myself less irritating.
you brought me here on earth.
but yet you seem to regret your decision n wana haf your happy life without me.
if so,
tell me.

yes im big enough; no more a child.
but do you noe how i feel?
no you dun.
all you do is to nag n scold at every single thin possible.
i give you face by keeping my silence.
why are you restricting my life?
this is my own money.
when you give me my own pocket money you are obviously trusting tt i learn to spend them properly.
its not as though im askin you for big sum of money everyday.
tts him. not me.

you ask me wad im so displeased bout you.
yes i cant wait to tell you.
but wads the point?
everythin would b my fault
i alrdy shut up n prevent much more arguements coming along the way.
you still blame me.
wad do you wan?
even if its his fault you point to me.
hello.
wads ur problem?
so wad if his older.
i really cant wait to get out of here you noe?
juz leave me alone will you

2005-11-12T11:29:00.000+08:00

haf you wondered how much are you worth in someone's life?
yea.
i do ask myself tt.

somehow.
i've been neglected somewhere i go.
i believe everyone else haf also been thru tt.
but yet.
haf you once treated someone wif so much respect, put tt person as such a great friend tt you haf in your life, treasure tt person so much.
n tt friendship means so much to you.
but den tt person actually having been treating you as a hi-bye fren.
n whether you exist in tt person life does not really matters.

how would you feel?

nah.
not tokin bout me.
but actually.
ya. think bout it.
how much ur fren haf put in so much effort for this relationship.
but you've actually not notice it all along.
thanks cherryl!
joeline n dawn too.
((: (if you dun understand. you can ask me)

2005-11-06T13:34:00.000+08:00

YAY!
i finally changed this.
haha.
when im free den i blog ok!
heh. sorry.

2005-09-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

yes,
im pissed.
im pissed as well as hurt.
you were the last person i tot would haf brought such a great disappointment to me.

you noe how much it takes for me to take the fact.
tt you were the one tts doin this to me.
i was a fool all along.
~~i was the one lying to myself all along.~~
thinkin tt i was alright.
i tot you would no longer leave me der.
but i was wrong.
oh so wrong.

i shall b strong n never let this affect me
cause im used to it.
yes im.

stop taking me for granted.
im telling you.
one last time.

never going to trust you again.

2005-09-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

advise: if you cant make a sense of wad i usually type, den dun bother readin. it wont do you any good.
n to those hu think tt they noe me really good inside out. think again. dun bother readin this entry too. you wont figure out anythin.

everythin is a lie. once again.

i realised tt i was actually very tolerant all these while.
i duno wad is this.
yea, i dun understand this myself.
all these while this was juz an ice block.
i cant stand it anymore.
didnt realised it til now.
the weakness is me.
all along.
i duno wads wrong wif all this things.
do i really understand this?
the emotions are all running wild.
not knowing where they were actually from.
why is this happening?
this wasnt suppose to b like tt.
but yet.
if it were like tt.
den dun you gain an advantage?
but so wad if you gain?
i dun get it.
do you?
no, you shouldnt cause you arent suppose to even read this.
dazed.
shake me out of this please,
stop lying to me please, all of you.
i cant take it anymore.

so, do you get wad i mean?
no rite.
told you so.

2005-09-18T17:46:00.000+08:00

ok, im pissed.
these maybe words of anger or wad but i mean it.
i mean it.

if you wana think tt tt stupid white crow is bad luck to you
den all the best cause i cant stand ppl hu believe in this kinda things
n those hu are supersititious.
if you wana think tt you saw the white crow n on tt day you broke up wif her.
den think all you wan.
you were like this all along,
insensitive to my feelings.
tt means you actually rmb the facts but yet i clearly rmb tt when i ask you
you actually say i cant rmb.
you are indeed a great liar.
thanks for leading me to believe all your lies.

2005-09-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

ok.
firstly.
i would like to apolojise.
the previous post is kinda harsh.
they are juz words of anger;
so dun take it to heart yea?

but yet,
i mean some words tt i say.
yes, words can hurt.
n i hope it wont b another time of me me me n my fault again.
we told you wad we tot it was wrong,
if you think tt we are in the wrong den you can tell us.
shall not say much alrdy

n ders still ppl i wana tell them off.
n i shall give them face by not sayin their name.
number 1 n 2.
yes you two.
im giving you 2 faces cause of her ok.
dun take it for granted cos i seriously had wanted to tell you off right infront of u long time ago
yes i wan to.
you juz watch out for ur ownself incase one day some1 comes threatening you n wantin to dig out ur eyeballs for being so kapoh ok.
shall not tok bout you

n you.
yes you.
please rmb tt you are a GB girl ok.
you dun come acting like one stupid chao ahlian in front of me
im pissed.
after all im your senior so you dun come pushin tt powerful body part of yours IN FRONT OF MY FACE
n tok some crap tt i dun understand.
n after i tell you off can you please go think bout wad i say instead of even threatenin me even more.
dun think tt im afraid of you or tt "powerful"body part of yours.
if you dare or you haf the guts den punch me anywhere you like.
yes i will let you punch me n report you to the disclipine com.
n im serious bout it.
oh yeas.
can i please remind you tt you are a girl. not a guy.

2005-09-15T00:41:00.000+08:00

blogger had something wrong.
but yet im typing this again cause im still angry.
it was actually "forgive n forget"
til i read some1's blog.

yes, so sad but i dun understand how you feel.
den do you understand how i feel?
i wasnt the one hu asked you to keep quiet or shut up.
neither was i the one hu forced you to do anythin.
you chose it to do it tt way yourself.

first you say its ur fault.
stop sayin its ME ME ME n MY fault.

i didnt stop you from going recess wif us.
neither did any of us.
we didnt say or put up a sign
"WE WAN YOU TO GO RECESS YOURSELF"
but den if you lied, den why shld we believe you?
der isnt a need to thank me for it cause i had nth to do wif it n i did not play a part in ask you to go recess BY YOURSELF.

if its ME ME ME n MY fault.
n its only between both of us
den you wouldnt ignore joyce or show her a black face.
if its between us you would haf gone recess wif them n NOT TOK TO ME ONLY.

short temper
den wad makes you think you haf a very good temper tt can tolerate every thin?
you too flare up sometimes for no reason.
oh n tell me when ever haf i slam things around huh.
i would only do it if i were angry
n you do it too ok.
since its a torture den you are welcome to change seats any point of time.
i dun mind.

you claim tt " i am almost NEVER angry wif you."
stop lying.
you knew yourself how many times haf we argued last time n i was the one hu kept calling n msging you n apolojising.

hu was the one hu said this " tell me if i haf done somethin wrong" or somthin like tt.
n after telling tt person tt person goes ANGRY for the WHOLE DAY.
n please stop being too dependent on others.
you too do things tt when ppl do it to you you dun like.

this used to affect me tt much. not anymore. not a single bit.

THIS IS TO CHERRYL LUM CHING MUN.
if you haf any comments, pls tell tt STRAIGHT IN MY FACE n not say you you you.
oh yeas.
I WILL GROW UP N WILL STOP BEING CHILDISH N LAME N HAVING A CRAPPY ATTITUDE.
dun regret your words.

2005-09-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

AHHHHH
we wanted to take photo where TT CHOPPED UP WOMAN BODY PART GOT THROWN AWAY OK.

2005-09-07T19:31:00.000+08:00

today went out wif dawn koh to play n study
yea
had lots of fun.
ate long john.
den studied.
den went topshop n espirit to try on clothes.
YEA!
heh.
i wan tt top n skirt.
she wan those skirts!

hmmm.
wheres our rich men to buy those stuffs for us!
denn.
yep
went subway to EAT AGAIN.
n laugh at ppl
hahaha.
laughin n studying lah.
yepp.
den took more photos.
look around.
n went home.
yeaa!
took lots of photos.
oh yea!
some RICH GUY kindly sponsor DAWN KOH to watch the perfect match the longest yard cinderella man red eye. n some other movies!

it would b soon before you receive my letter.

2005-09-05T14:02:00.000+08:00

ai.
haf been wanting to blog this long time ago but couldnt find time too.
dun you tink my sotong is so cute!
i tink he is lah!

ystd i was juz lying on my bed n talkin to him.
too lazy to wake up.
den he was like.
wad!you're still lying on your bed!
den i told him ai lazy la going to get up to eat only.
n he went like
*snort snort*
(girly voice) i wan to eat!
*snort snort*
(girly voice) i wan my food!
hahahhas.
too bad for him i recorded tt down!
hahahas.

n der are many many things tt he did was so cute but no time to blog lah.
heh.
oh yea.
ignore that previous post X)

2005-09-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

everybody thinks that im so perfectly alright but the truth is that im not.
almost every night n morning haf been tryin to mug for a silly test that makes a difference in my exam marks;
gettin these super so big eye bag tt even an outsider saw it even far away.
i duno wad m i tokin.

but yet i see myself puttin in effort to work hard n tryin a little harder but yet all you do is to scream at me for nth n juz make me feel so frustuated wif life n every other thin.

you think tt im not upset wif my results but its all so hidden well enough.
you think tt i dun work hard enough n you never bother to ask if its anythin else tt im not doin good.
you think tt i dun wana study hard to get a better life n get into tt jc that i desire.
do you even noe wads tt jc tt i desire.
you never bother to ask.

im actually feelin all so terrible all because of all of you.
that i actually dislike to even come home now.
or even think bout home now.
im juz returning home early to aviod tt fear tt you would start callin my phone n screamin at me or scream at me for no reason when i reach home or threaten me wif stuffs.or to lock me out of the house.
you dun understand me.
infact, you never understood me.
i had alrdy made up my mind to juz work hard but yet you never fail to make me feel like such a failure that can never get wad i wan.
or mayb im expecting too much.
i dun even wana tok to you now.
when would you understand me?

2005-08-31T21:48:00.000+08:00

ai.
todays teachers day
yeaa.
went out wif WEN.
ELVIS and CHERYL.
yea.
so fun
ate.
walked
den i went to far east n see my earrings n also saw marcus homing they all la!
as usual
irritating noisy =x
haa
they pang sei marcus n i was like walkin n tokin to him
long time no tok!
haha.
denn.
went back to find wenn n elvis n cheryl
by den almost 7 plus
went home.
NO PHOTOS!
all kor kor fault!

2005-08-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

aye.
today.
was quite fun la.
hah.
i tink MR KANG n MR JOHNEY JOSEPH IS funny la
aii.
hahas.
hmmm
den.

school.
BORING.
heh.
went to eat PAPER wif marcus tan.
hah.
hes forever playin wif his jelly.
den tuition!
oh YEA!
I WANA BUY FOX AND HULA & CO. TOPS!
yeaa!
i wan i wan i wan!
i tink im going to ask KOR KOR for money XP
den. tuition.
and when i was on the way home.
THIS STUPID CAT SCARED ME.
i was on the phone. walkin. walking. (in the darK)
den i saw tt stupid meow meow n went meoww.
DEN THAT STUPID CAT TURNED N MEOWED AT ME
WORSE OF ALL IT WALKED TOWARDS ME.
that really scared me ok
i SCREAMED n said. DUN COME TO ME.
n that cat was smart enough to walk away.

I WANA COMPLAIN BOUT ALOT OF THINGS!

2005-08-21T20:21:00.000+08:00

oh well.
not excatly a good day.
~~to think tt im actually considering a breakup.~~
but.
wad can i do.
disappointment.
shallnt think too much.

yay!
im startin to save money.
likeFINALLY.
hahas.
shallnt eat so much again.

oh yes!
my BROTHER. went to this COOKING competition n WON.
plese note the words. BROTHER, COOKING and WON!
goshh. hahahas.

2005-08-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

ai.
cant say much. hoho

2005-08-12T20:57:00.000+08:00

ha.
i feel so bad now.
heh.
im super sorry la dawn.
i feel so bad alwyas being late but oh well
i DO mean it when i say i owe you one meal ok.
candlelight?
hahahas.
kidding.

yeas.
i find myself changing la.
i mean. for the better(i tink?)
hahahahas.
i really hope too.
n i used to tink tt this was all a puppy love
but yet when i tink bout it i realised tt this was nv the kinda love i had.
ya.
n even if it was a puppy love i feel tt its changin to true love now.
oh well.
is der such things?
but.
i really feel tt way huh.
oh well.
im so tired now. hahahas.

2005-08-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

stupid.
i never liked sharing the com.

2005-08-06T21:15:00.000+08:00

ai. i duno wads wif me
i duno

youu.
i cant stand it anymore
im going to BLOW IT OUT TO YOU ONE DAY.
arghh
tolerance la huh.
im actually tolerating.
how good. ((:

2005-07-30T23:22:00.000+08:00

oh yeass.
wads so wrong wif me.
i duno.
i really dun.
cant stay happy for long.

2005-07-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

yeas.
flag raiser.
boos.
haf been doin a lousy job outta it.
boo me pls.
my flag haf been dropping for the past two days.
tsk.

haf really learnt how to contorl my tears well.
oh well.
all kept in my heart
i wonder how long can i stay un-crying.
yet i noe tt deep in my heart
it hurts so much.
juz so much.
sighh.
some one pls heal my heart.

2005-07-23T21:03:00.000+08:00

yays.
im ((: now.

2005-07-22T21:21:00.000+08:00

speechless.
lonely.

an unhappy smile.
is der even a smile.
dun feel like tokin.

a stab in my heart.

2005-07-21T22:18:00.000+08:00

seriously speaking
im still pissed wif ong woeichian but its ok.
i shldnt haf shouted at him too.

grrr.
can someone pls remind me to update all my blogs
wahahahahha
anyway.
life arent tt good.
but well
wad to do
survive wif it lo.
haf to go on wif it wad.

gee
am i earning the hatred of the whole school
wahahah

2005-07-18T19:55:00.000+08:00

happy 100th. ((:
i feel guilty.
deb bday toady
n im so MEAN to TOTALLY FORGOT bout it.
sighh
wad kind of fren m i

grrr.
i duno wad im sayin
i duno wad i wan
i dun feel like tokin.
i juz feel like screaming.
but will my heart feel so much more better?

2005-07-11T17:27:00.000+08:00

wahaha.
today so isnt a good day until.
bout 4 plus
blehh.
God answered my prayer ((:
forgot wad i wanted to say la huh.
hee

i wan my corochan!

to you-
i will try to change.

2005-07-04T11:35:00.000+08:00

"and i got this stupid living reflection of me who happens to be called my twinnie. and the SADDEST fact of al. i've known her for TWELVE years."

thanks "twinnie"
since u r so ashamed of me being your twinnie
why dun you pretend tt i dun exist
cause you haf your besties as your best frens after all.
since you n my mum is so ashamed of me y dun u all leave me alone to die.
if you find me such a disgrace den go find your besties.
i dun need someone to be ashamed of me.
besides i can see tt u live without me n u dun need much of me as you only come to find me when they arent there for you
it has always been you n your besties.

wadever

2005-07-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

thanks.
thanks for treatin me as the second.
all you do is you n ur besties.
hello.
u said you n ur besties haven been going towning for a month.
wad bout us.
u totally forgot bout us.
-roll eyes.
like hello.
when had we gone out together.
besides friday which u actually intended to go out wif them n not me.
you had no choice to go out wif me.
i noe.
i noe u wanted to go out wif them n not me
i noe.
i had always been second.
all you say everyday is
lets go out together
n wads next?
ya.
together.
together wif u n ur besties
like hello.
when i need to tok to you
your always out.
n i wana go out wif u study wif you
ya
wif your besties.
-roll eyes.
thanks.

.

2005-06-29T19:49:00.000+08:00

n i noe tt i cant control ur eyes.
cant stop wad u wana see.
becos i noe tt even when ur infront of me.
u wana look at them.
i noe tt behind me n not wif me u would definately look at them.
i noe tt.

...

2005-06-29T19:42:00.000+08:00

)):
i noe i shldnt said those stuffs.
i duno y did i did tt.
maybe it were those reasons i told u
i duno.

trust.
i will try.
hope.
im pulling it back into my life.
stubborn.
anger.
i will try.
but obviously.
i expect u to make me happy.
but if u get pissed off wif me.
n walk off.
den i guess u probably destoryed ur chance.
made a decision to really walk away.

juz stop doin things tt make me disappointed.
will you.
cant stand it anymore.